TOOTS.

currently listening to: The Fan [Irritating the Toots Out Of Me]

caution: this entry is extremely toot-sified.

WHAT THE TOOTS.

i was definitely out of my toot mind to agree to being placed in the THC scheme.
i was even more out of my toot mind to agree to being the MC.

hey mister, providing transport for the mentees is the the basics okays.
how can you just cancel it and still expect wonderful attendance??
PRSS is at the other end of Singapore okay!?
and I KNOW BROADRICK is in the east too, BUT IS IT AS EAST AS PRSS???
how can you expect mentees to turn up at some faraway wulu school if you don't provide them with transport there??
as if you dunno we are the most unmotivated school in thc.
and it's already bad enough that you don't have transport back, now you're gonna cancel the transport THERE as well???

what's more, these are NEW mentees, completely new and only been to ONE MENTORING SESSION so HOW THE TOOTS do you expect them to feel motivated to turn up for some stupid event that is a hundred miles away from their homes??

and what a nice first impression you are making to them.

and then he gave me some crap sarcastic answer:
"it shouldn't be a problem you you can market the idea well :))"
i shot back politely:
"Okay. tho i don't think my 'marketing' will help much but i will try my best to."
then he replied:
"i have faith in you and shirleen (he got the name wrong too). well, don't stay up too late."

WHAT THE TOOTS!!
felt like saying:
PLEASE DON'T HAVE ANY FAITH IN ME OKAY.
i can't just go for mentoring and tell the mentees:
"oh i'm sorry but the transport we promised you is gone so now you gotta take mrt all the way there ya."
and don't expect me to be such a good motivator.
I AM NOT HITLER.

AND WHY THE TOOTS DID YOU THINK I'M STAYING UP SO LATE FOR.
i don't need your sarcastic and hypocritical comment ya.
i don't need you to gloat over your supposed 'victory' in this issue ya.

plus now i gotta inform all the mentors about this.
no, in fact i think i have to call the mentees up personally to explain the situation and get their responses.
all 32 of them.
WHAT THE TOOTS.
WHAT DO YOU THINK MY TIME IS FOR.
I'M AN 'A' LEVEL STUDENT OKAY.
quoting someone: I'M JUST A VOLUNTEER.

i know this may not be the case but...
IF THIS IS YOUR WAY OF GETTING BACK THEN YOU ARE AIMING AT THE WRONG BUNCH OKAY.
my mentors have all graduated. poof.
they're not coming back anymore even if you beg.
it is the new batch of mentors and mentees that your actions will affect.
THINK TWICE BOZO.

and why the toots am i still so involved in thc stuff.
I AM SUPPOSE TO BE A RETIREE!!
get out of my life!

i have an economics test tomorrow and there you are ruining my mood for study.
i was only at foreign exchange when that stupid message came.
i haven't even touched balance of payments!!
and the stupid exchange of words made me completely unable to study any further.
and now it's 1 pm.
THE ANGER IS CONSUMING MY MIND YA.

i am now very sympathetic towards future MCs.
i don't think that they should be elected by us.
i think that it should be voluntary.
we shouldn't even ask anyone if they want to cuz they'll most probably say yes under pressure.
like yours truly.

maybe i'm the only incompetent one but i think MCs are exploited.
they ask you to go for 4-hour meetings, but the only time you get to talk is the 15-minute report on PRSS-TPJC.
they ask you to arrange loads of stuff without concern that you are already overloaded by schoolwork.
they ask you to confirm loads of stuff but they can't make up their mind.
they ask you to motivate your mentors and mentees without realising that this is such a difficult task and that we are not Hitlers.
they ask you to encourage your mentors and mentees but the things they expect them to do is so hopelessly troublesome and most of the time lame.

and then you get the reprimands if you fail to do any one of them.

i don't care if anyone reads this.
i don't care even if THC sees this.
I AM TOOTS ANGRY.


WHAT THE TOOTS.

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