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UNGLAM POST.

i'll regret typing this post for sure.



and it's in singlish too. red alert.




urgh. super-unglam.




shall never look at this post again.





siao lah.
think we so free go do all the thc stuff for them ar.
even if we happen to have more time then them also cannot anyhow pile work one mah.
sumore we very inexperienced leh!
then anyhow anyhow change plan.
anyhow anyhow assign tasks to people.
how can liddat!

"please get your mentors who are in the planning commitee to assist you, make this a group effort."

diao.
think so easy ar.
my handphone bill is higher than my housephone bill liao lah.
and at the rate our schedules are clashing with the mentees, i don't even know whether mentoring can actually take place lah.
plus so many mentees are dropping out of the program, and the blahblah prss teacher hasn't done anything to recruit new mentees yet.
liddat already so many mentors not happy liao lah.
still wan me to say:
"ehh.. people say must make this group effort so come let's plan together hor."
helloOo.
it's not that easy one lor.

i'm not even sure if i can find my way to the new prss campus lah.
what if i lost how?
what if i lost then behind me so many mentors also lost how?
then will have internal conflict lah.
then point here point there then in the end you guess point where?

and plus must get 86 mandarin oranges.
prepare gifts.
arrange transport time and location.
confirm with teachers and blah when i can't even find them.
then all this within such a short span of time?
you think i everyday got time to prepare these stuff ar?
i only wednesday (and maybe friday) got time one lor!

sumore it's not that bad if you want me alone to do the stuff.
i mean i can pull out spare time somehow and lump them together and try to come up with the stuff.
budden no lor.
they want group work lor.
then plus alot of the stuff i alone also cannot decide one lor.
have to meet with the mentors then discuss one lor.
then wednesday is the only day lor.
any other day then missing attendance liao lor.
actually even if it's wednesday also got people missing one lah.
then if we decide stuff without them, they'll come up with new stuff another day.
then the entire thing have to edit liao.
then edit also cannot i alone decide since it has to be discussed as a group.

if i try to decide in a small small group (say with shirlene and a few others) before informing the rest of them.
then some will be thinking how come we never discuss with them.
then sometimes bo bian they have to make some sacrifices.
if they understand then not so bad.
if they don't understand then it becomes my fault.
budden there is no other way liao.
unless some of us have to have even BIGGER sacrifices for those who are unwilling to.
then the whole thing become unfair liao rite?
actually wanted to make things fair.
then in the end become liddat then seems like the fault does lie with me.

so in the end one time bomb here one time bomb there then one day KABOOM liao.
then who's the one whose most jialat?

so how what you wan me to do.

grrr.

and the school is piling like 124267115 number of assignments on us lah.
just one weekend and i have to do 3 essays liao.
[essays only. got homework that is not essay format too.]
THEN i realise there is one more i haven do.
THEN i realise out of the 3 essays, 2 can be essay outlines.
double diaos lah.

and i can't finish the assignments lah.
not that i purposely don't do.
it's that i CANNOT FINISH lah.
do do do then cannot finish.
then become like i never do homework liddat.

like the dunno what silas marner chapter analysis.
only one week how to do?
one week can lah but how to be detailed and comprehensive?
if wan it to be for our benefit then it should be as detailed as possible mah.
then give us one week on top of all the other 124267114 assignments and cca.
how to be detailed liddat?
i took 1 hour for chapter 1 lah!

ok i admit maybe i am abit too slow.
but it'll also take 1/2 hour at least lah.
how many 1/2 hours do i have left when schools ends at 4.10pm?
there's other homework also one leh!

then plus still got tests and projects and presentations.
suay lah my class register number 1.
whatever presentation also i go first.
LIM also can get class register number 1.
dunno how they arrange one lah.

grrr.

i haven't studied for the gothic essay test tmr lah.
i simple refuse to read vathek.
frankenstein quite interesting but no time to read.
although i did most of the readings during the holiday,
I CAN'T REMEMBER A SINGLE THING.
how to do essay liddat.
die liao lah.
confirm kena his saliva when the results are out.

haiizzzz.

oh blahblahblahblah.
i forgot to watch naruto again.
grrrr.

i dun like school lah.






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