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currently listening to: Colorful [Yamashita Tomohisa]

i don't know what came over me today.
i feel disgusted.
in fact i am turned off by everything that i am.
nonono.
you can't let this bug you, xinyi.
just be yourself, please.
be yourself.

shoooo those naggy, ugly thoughts away.
you know you're not irritated by everything.
you know you're not unfeeling towards everything.
you know you're not like that.
small stuff like these can't be a problem.
they can't possibly make you act like that.

forget about it lar!
it's making you worse!!

kick it away.
crush it.
fling it to the other side of the earth.
it shall never come back again.

gwarsh.
i'm talking to myself.

tomorrow shall be a better day.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。