may all praying mantis disappear from my sad life

currently listening to: Let me Show you the Way [Natasha Thomas]

my conclusion is that the praying mantis can fly.

i can't be carrying the praying mantis for the whole day in my bag without knowing it. please tell me it just happened to fly into the house and thought of my bag a suitable landing point. i REFUSE to believe that it was in my bag all along.

i have decided that praying mantis shall be my eternal enemy, in place of my Econs 10-year-series. although both of them made it to my bag somehow but at least the Econs 10-year series won't turn its head from left to right to left to right slowly and continuously... and move its hands up and down as if its trying to perform some Ace's Day workout.. and stare at me with those *shudders* horrible eyes... and have a body that's so green it freaks me out...

ARGHHHHH!!!!

imagine my shock, or rather, TERROR when i spotted a praying mantis as tall as the length of my feet just one metre away from me when i was returning home from a movie late at night. yes, it was THIS big and it was repeating all the actions that i had just described in the earlier paragraph. EEKS.

how can a thing this big fly???

i just have an affinity with insects. be it praying mantis, cockroaches, mosquitoes, ants or beetles (who like to knock themselves against the walls for some reason). you name it, i attract it. it's just about the same way i manage to attract spywares and viruses despite the several layers of protection my brother and technician painstakingly set up for me, or the fact that i always visit the same few perfectly healthy webbys. my record? 300++ spywares and 8 viruses at one go (and it's only ONE go-- my com has been sent for repairs for N times already). insects? i come into close contact with them almost everyday. somehow they like to get into my hair, my shoes, onto my bed, my limbs, my table, my WHATEVER.

TELL ME WHY. god made me this way.

ok so today was TPJC college day. what more can you expect from college days? aching butt and swelling palms and drooping eyes. jingfang and i were hit by a horrible reality today---

1)no one in the JC had an A for history or literature
2)there were less than 10 Arts Fac people in the award list
3)the science fac took up 9/10 of the awards
4)economics top scorers were all from the Science Fac
5)even the overall top scorer is from the Science Fac

all these comes down to but one conclusion-- the arts fac in TPJC is.. dots. this has made me realised (reluctantly) that maybe i should have stayed on in ACJC. i have to admit that ACJC arts fac is superior both in QUANTITY (TPJC:ACJC= 1:3) and QUALITY (need i say more). i believe that ACJC excels in Arts because of its students' background and characteristics. this proves that a powerful command of the english language and the regularity of its usage is really essential for an Arts student. what this means? it just means that my life as an Arts student is gonna be very very hard.

but i know i won't be as happy in ACJC than i am in TPJC, even though i've got 1AD2. almost 3/4 of the class is gone and i did many things (things that would affect my prospects in ACJC) because i knew that i wasn't going to stay. so if i stayed on for the sake of better results and environment, it would be at the expense of my social life and personal records. and i doubt i would be able to get any work done with all the time spent on traveling. argh. it's either one thing or another. this is life.



i can hardly say i've put in effort for my studies right now. i haven't read my history notes, tried my econs essay questions or look up on literary responses. and these are all my A level subjects and so much more blah. my life so far has been devoted to completing homework and handing them in on time and this can hardly be considered 'studying'. worse still, the exams are only ONE MONTH away and i have to spent 7 days of the month in china and another 7 days for extra classes (which means more homework). less than 2 weeks to study-- Cs & Ds (maybe Es too), here i come.

man, am i gonna drop one subject. although i know it probably wouldn't help much but at least there won't be so much stress when people tell me that TPJC students with 4 subjects usually end up messing up their A-levels.

and there are just soooo many temptations!!! i just bought a set of Doraemon movies and Hotman 2. i borrowed FMA DVDS from judy too. how much temptation can a girl take??

speaking of anime, TSUBASA RESERVOIR CHRONICLE IS ANIME-FIED!!! woohoo!!! i've heard the opening and ending themes. not spectacular, i must say. but i am sure the anime will turn out to be more than what i am expecting-- that is if i manage to buy it somehow. *sobx*

ok, have to return to Ao Math functions. homework AGAIN. sigh.

but let me just talk about my latest advert-theme craze : Let me Show you the Way by Natasha Thomas! it's the theme song for Lacoste Touch of Pink perfume.

Let Me Show You (The Way)
Natasha Thomas

Let me show you the way
It’s the game that we play
Or whether it did
So easy
Let me show you the way
Or just say what you say
So easily

The way of your touch is always heavenly
and I love the way that you are loving me
You wrapped me up in the colour of your love
you must be an angel high from above

In the game of the heart, you know I know that you are mine

Let me show you the way
It’s the game that we play
Or whether it did
So easy
Let me show you the way
Or just say what you say
So easily

Are you gonna be there when I need someone
And will I be always just the only one
I don't wanna have just another heartbreak
So tell me is your love true or a fake

In the game of the heart, you know I know that you are mine

Let me show you the way
It’s the game that we play
Or whether it did
So easy
Let me show you the way
Or just say what you say
So easily

One kiss, One love, One word,
one vow and nothing more

One night, one dream
gonna save it save it for me

Let me show you the way
It’s the game that we play
Or whether it did
So easy
Let me show you the way
Or just say what you say
So easily

and if jingfang or hairianto is reading this: cheer up!! the sun will shine much more brighter once the cloud clears! =)



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