currently listening to: Sayonara Solitaire [Chrno Crusade]

i've come to the horrifying conclusion that i'm indeed getting fat.

no kidding! i was trying on a swimsuit the other day and the bulge was so extremely OBVIOUS!!! oh man, i'm gonna die... this means serious dieting-- i'm gonna climb the stairs everyday, do sit-ups everyday and... what else?? i don't have time to run though.

speaking of running, i'm having PE tomorrow and PE in ACJC is... running several rounds even though it's raining, raising your legs in the air for minutes while singing "twinkle twinkle little star"... etc. these i'm gonna go through the first thing in school tomorrow morning, for 1 hour 20 minutes. in other words it's extremely tough and being in the state that i am in now (BULGING FAT), i'm simply going to make a fool outta myself tomorrow. please pray for me.

JC life's pretty much about lectures and tutorials and finding your way in the big big school. lectures? i stare at the teacher, try to absorb, suddenly she seems to talk without full-stops, i start to wonder what she's talking about, and my brain switches off.

that's basically how i work in ACJC now. all lectures except for history. tutorials are fine. the AO math teacher seems kind, the chinese teacher seems nothing more than a common ah-so from the market, the lit teacher is someone who seemed as if he's associated with the color purple, and the GP teacher seems a little boring but since they say GP is great in ACJC i guess i shall just wait and see.

interaction with classmates-- i am with them almost every minute in school, as a class. seriously, we go everywhere as a class. lectures, tutorials, recess, lunch. but that's probably better for me cuz at least there'll be more interaction and i don't have to do everything alone. but still, i kinda keep to myself during our mass conversations. firstly, i just dunno what to talk about. secondly, you know. and i think i've become the 'timetable girl'. i've been asked the same questions for 8 times today. everyone's asking me about the next lesson, where and when etc. -__-"

i think this is the way my first 3 months of ACJC is going to go. attending lectures and tutorials and trying to understand, keeping to myself during conversations and speaking only when necessary, reading newspapers daily, trying to keep myself awake in school and of course... DIETING!!!

i am really really really really extremely terribly horribly upset about the bulging stomach that i have that is so obvious now. i shall go on a hunger strike.

Graduation
Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our
lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming
back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different
track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have
another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without
sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real cool
Stay at home talking on the telephone with me
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in
school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with
a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, laà
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, laà
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about
now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us
'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly



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