currently listening to: Melissa [Fullmetal Alchemist]

ok so just to make this clear, i have yet to get over or solve the emily problem. (i am in deep BLAH)

it's chinese oral for the 'O' Levels tomorrow and i have a bad feeling about whatever that is gonna come my way the next day. practised oral with my teacher and friends together and i was like totally "eRr... Ahhh... Hmmm... *looks down and plays with fingers*".

imagine it's the 'O' Levels tomorrow and i am still sitting here typing away!!! frankly, it's because i have no idea what to prepare and how i am gonna go about doing it because i feel that i won't really help me much in a way.

okok, maybe it does help, so i am just LAZY. sigh. SICK of studying. *curses*

i've just downloaded a polyphonic ringtone of w-inds.' LONG ROAD!!! it's a slow version as compared to the original one, but it gives a different feeling which i thought i really liked. heheheheheh.. *happy happy*

i really really REALLY hope that we can get the T-shirt issue over and done with as quickly as possible. i just want to return to the real simple timetable of school then home. can't really stand all the hoo-has and extra lessons that keep interfering with my wish of a simple timetable. this includes all the TUITION and stupid stuff. why can't i just NOT have tuition???? maths is ok, i know i really need help for it but english??

in this case. it's not really a matter about emily because i had refused english tuition right fom the start even before i met her. her coming only further confirmed my thoughts and severely worsened my life. i mean, i don't think i will exactly FAIL my 'O' levels english. maybe i would get a C5 or B4 or the like but i am sorta certain that i won't fail (i hope i don't regret saying this). and i am convinced that all the emphasis on english that i received in school is enough to help me with my english, i don't need an overdose!!

the problem is that they are not convinced about this because my brother, supposedly an A1/A2 student in english, had a D7 in the end so they are worried that the same would happen to me. i can swear that if that had not happened, i wouldn't be having english tuition now. WHAT A NICE THOUGHT....

how i wish i could turn back time. then i would just flunk my PSLE and continue staying in RSS. i wouldn't have to go through all these then.

NO FAITH IN ME, that's what, NO FAITH.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。