f.
currently listening to: Koe wo Kikasete [Big Bang]

am in a ridiculously lousy mood.
that's what you get from being cooped up at home for too long.
with nothing but macdonalds and nong shim cup noodles everyday.
I DON'T HAVE A LIFE.
what life?!?!
and i'm getting cranky, depressed and fed-up.
and nothing in this damn world works for me today.
great. thank you i appreciate it very much.

i'm gonna have this laptop flying out of my window someday.

nuff talk i'm out of the house the first thing tomorrow.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, November 21, 2009

11:17 PM

and i know why.
currently listening to: 感同身受 [林宥嘉]

不一样的血肉之躯在痛苦快乐面前，我们都是平起平坐。

this week.
a hurricane of emotions.
so many things. so many people.
and mostly, myself.
i don't know where to start, and i've got no time to start.

最后，我只是在很希望自己能够做些什么的同时，什么都没做。
变本加厉且近乎无可救药地无能。

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

2:17 AM

post-hk: just touched down
currently listening to: You Are [w-inds.]

you know what.
this time, hong kong was a blast.

screaming my heart out.
walking under the stars.
laughing like a child.
with my heart racing like never before.

i didn't want to leave.
especially when i think of all the stuff waiting for me back home (that keeps you awake at this ungodly hour with a 8.30am meeting tomorrow).

i wish i had time to write everything down.
but reality has it that i don't have that time.

とにかく、今回のホンコンは最高だ <3
i hope you enjoyed it as much as i did.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, November 07, 2009

12:23 AM

w-inds. concert in hong kong!
currently listening to: Nothing [My Ears Are Ringing]

some quick notes before my short-term memory fails me. note, pardon the english cuz i'm typing straight off my head:

i nearly cried when they appeared on stage. i couldn't believe myself. and throughout the concert, i felt like i could cry anytime i want to - it was that easy.

keita is the most good looking guy alive. i've never seen anyone better in my entire lifetime to date.

i saw the first "new world" live!! first in the whole world!!!!

i waved my lightstick like a loony when they walked over to my side of the stage. and i convinced myself that they could see me. HAHAHA.

keita never. went. off. tune. not even once. amazing. although he did sound a little like the male version of ayumi hamasaki throughout the concert.

i couldn't decide whether to stare at the stage or the screen cuz they were so far away. the camera work was really good though. i think they brought over the same camera man from japan.

in fact when i saw them, the first thought was that the camera men in japan do their work well because they look EXACTLY like how they look in tv. i felt like i was watching them on tv all over again.

the stage was OMG. my friends told me that they spent alot of money to bring the entire stage over, including around 80 over staff members. so the bomb we spent on the tickets is actually worth it.

i spent 3 whole hours queuing up for concert goods. concert goods are effing expensive. i spent HK$780 (S$156) on the lightstick, towel and t-shirt and i didn't even get the concert pamphlet *heartbreak*.

they did 2 encores. was a little dissapointed they didn't sing "forever memories".

at the end of the concert, keita made ryohei say in cantonese: 我喜欢你,我要娶你, which i totally couldn't understand until i asked the hk girl beside me.

the crowd was amazing. to think i was so scared that nobody would be there. you would think you're at a concert in japan cuz so many of them were dressed jap-style. i even saw a girl with long blue hair, and another one in cosplay attire, and another 3 in kimonos.

and there were so many male fans!!! japanese fans also flew over specially for the concert- so hardcore. i reckon it's for the "new world" live though, since it's the first time they are performing it.

and alot of tha fans are long-time fans. when i asked around on how long they have been supporting w-inds, the average answer was 6 years. gosh, 2 years later than me, but still AMAZING.

honestly i can't remember what they sang (my short memory at work), but they sounded wayyyy better than on cd. can't get back, rain is fallin, hybrid dream, boogie woogie 66, endless moment, new world, deny, everyday, crazy for you.... GOD I CAN'T REMEMBER ALREADY LAHHHH.

ryohei and ryuichi were given alot of chances to sing!! and that sent the crowd roaring.

am totally in love with the W sign. whenever keita raised his hands to do the W sign, the entire crowd raised thei hands and did it together with him. it was like a cult following lah.

the people around me weren't very high though. in fact i felt like i was more agitated than them. haha. so there wasn't any jumping around or dancing. some screaming but my voice is still intact. and i did wave the lightstick like mad, which is the reason why i'm typing this post with my left hand right now. HAHA.

during the MC segments, all 3 of them said the same things they always say when they do their MCs- today is amazing, i love *insert place here*, we are so grateful to be here, we want to be here again, this is a good place etc etc. haha. no originality. but i love them anyway :))

they tried to test whether the crowd knew japanese. so keita said something i can't remember for the effing god of me. basically he played with the affirmatives and negatives, and the crowd screamed at both sentences anyway = they don't understand japanese. was quite funny.

then they tried to test their cantonese, and ryuichi said in cantonese "i am keita", crowd screams, "i am ryohei", crowd screams, "i am ryuichi" and crowd went fanatic. so they were relieved and said "wakaru, wakaru", which means their pronunciation was okay since we could understand them.

when the concert was over, there were 2 fans (1 guy 1 girl) who were interviewed because they won this lucky draw where they got signed poster from the members. according to my friend, the signatures was personalised and addressed TO THEM. so lucky. and yes they were crying like mad as they displayed the poster in front of the camera. so emo lor.

my friends are i tried to wait for the w-inds. van after the concert too. i don't know if we caught it cuz it went pass so fast. but there were some people chasing the van anyways so let's take it that we really saw the correct van. HAHA.

shit my memories are already fuzzy. i can't remember anything more and i'm sure by tomorrow i'll forget half of what i remember now! ARGHHHH!!!

but i should say this before i forget it as well:

i'm really grateful to my parents for being there. although i told them so many times to just go ahead first, my mum was there with me throughout the whole 3 hours of buying concert goods. and it really made a difference because i didn't know anyone there. and although i could understand cantonese, i couldn't speak it well. had to depend on her to break the ice.

i'm really grateful to my clique who bought the ticket for me. you have no idea how much this means to me. and knowing that you guys are a part of the reason for my joy makes me feel just so blessed.

i'm really grateful to the w-inds. fans that i made friends with today, especially 阿YAN and 阿JOE. they are really the first "fan-friends" that i've ever made. without them, my entire concert experience would have been so dull. they made me feel like i was really involved, and spoke to me in mandarin even though it wasn't their mother tongue. 好感动! in fact, i remember more of what i did with them than the actual concert itself. that's how much they've made an impact.

oh man. it is over.
god knows when i'll be at their concert again.
god knows.

lastly: mediacorp, please call soon or i'll cry the rest of the week away.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Monday, November 02, 2009

9:20 PM

not even at breaking point.
currently listening to: Is It 'The World Is So Big' [Or 'The World Is Too Big']

GWAHHHH.
inadequate.
a world that makes you feel inadequate and lets you know that you should feel inadequate and then forces you to harp on your inadequacy is shit.

i don't need it, really.
thank you very much.

who am i kidding,who.
go back to work you shoo.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Sunday, November 01, 2009

1:13 AM

why i am still short of time.
currently listening to: Dao Xiang [Jay Chou]

when i decided to go for the w-inds. concert, i had everything planned.
i would finish all my revision 1 week earlier to compensate for the downtime.
so i chiong-ed and pia-ed to finish them.

ALAS.
i never thought that i would spend 1 week on internship interviews.
and now.
i am still one week behind schedule.

shit.
so should i be s/u-ing something?

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。