林芯怡.
currently listening to: Ariamaru Tomi[Shiina Ringo]

可不可以不要天时地利人和？

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Monday, May 25, 2009

10:36 PM

so sick.
currently listening to: Come Back to Me [Utada Hikaru]

my stomach is bulging.
my back is aching.
my skin is rotting.
my health is blehblahblech deteriorating.
life at this moment is just not very fulfiling.

today i learn that resolve takes much more than cheap talk.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Friday, May 22, 2009

12:33 AM

another kind of horror.
currently listening to: Nothing [Too Spooky Maybe]

i can't believe reading my grades is as bad as watching a horror movie.

the clock strikes 12 and a realisation strikes my heart.

"...oh no. oh god." i mumbled to myself.

with trembling hands i reached out for the mousepad to log on to student link, only to withdraw my fingers hastily the moment they touched it.

should i, or should i not? maybe i should just turn around and dart into my blanket and wait for day break...

but damn, i just have to find out what's in there.

so i crept stealthily to my laptop once again, eyeing it with distrust, with FEAR, like some tiger would jump out from it and pounce on me any second.

i took a deep breath, and clicked. it took its time to load while i covered my face with my hands, leaving only a small gap enough to eye the cursor with the loading icon beside it.

"what could they be. my god, what is it?!" so many thoughts were running through my mind as i stared at the cursor in desperation.

INTERNET EXPLORER CANNOT DISPLAY THE WEBPAGE.

what the *tooot*??!! not now!!

i clicked the refresh button hurriedly. nothing happens. i hit it repeatedly in anger and suddenly there was a flash on the screen that i knew too well and...

"YARGHHHHH!!!" i shrieked and my hands flew to my face again and i raised my knees to my face as well.

i stayed like that for a few seconds, balancing myself on the bed with just my butt because everything else was in front of my face.

then i felt like an idiot.

and i hadn't even read my results.

-_-"

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

3:08 PM

i need to save myself.
currently listening to: Fire [2NE1]

when you're so lazy you can't even find the motivation to write your resume despite the fact that you kind of need a job, you know there's a problem.

and yes that's yours truly two and a half weeks into the holidays.

i wonder why i'm allowing myself to repeat the same routine and the same rants every time the holidays come along. life thus far has been peaceful, and over-ly so if i should say so, to the point that i'm kinda impressed by my ability to find things to occupy my time when there really isn't much to do.

my otaku spirit is revisiting and i've spent much time watching kyou kara maou that i never thought i would watch. it totally turned me off years ago when i was told that the story started with the hero being flushed down the toilet bowl. what kind of a stupid plot is that?! according to my brother, the show is a yaoi fest that i vaguely recall judy mentioning before so i thought it'd be dismissed it from my life forever.

but you know, things happen and i kinda chiong-ed through 78 episodes in 3 days. surprisingly it's kinda nice with all the politics and characterisations. the yaoi hints are really just for comic effect and made into a storm by fans of the series i would say (which reminds me of tvxq if you get what i mean). there's still a season 3 that i'm currently watching but it isn't that exciting so progress has been slow and i can feel my otaku spirit waving byebye already.

and thus i'm back to having nothing to do again.

just write your resume, xinyi, just write it.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Monday, May 11, 2009

10:32 PM

and the reason for the backaches.
currently listening to: Fire [2NE1]

i was told to exercise.
*raises eyebrows*
no excuse now.

there are alot more things on my list tho.
hmmm.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。