Kiss Shita Mama, Sayonara
currently listening to: Kiss Shita Mama, Sayonara [TVXQ]

Kissしたまま、さよなら.

it's like listening to 5 guys crying.
i dunno whether to love this song or to hate this song.

but definitely, it strikes a chord.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

1:38 AM

blabberr.
currently listening to: Built to Last [Melee]

it's recess, it's recess and i'm slacking awayy~~

well, not exactly slacking, but i'm doing everything else other than revision. even when i finally have some time to revise i'm typing away at the computer like right now. but let's not go into this like i've done a hundred over times before.

recently, i've been working on the alumni section of the SCI newsletter. i thought it was a pretty *toot*toot* job at first, but i'm starting to think that maybe it's not so bad after all. i tend to think alot when i look at the interviews done with them and the photos they provided for feature. right now, it may seem like 4 years is so far away from me and i'm completely apprehensive about how things will turn out in the future. but the idea that life will turn out well is getting stronger. even though there may be a whole lot of hardships ahead, we'll get to somewhere somehow.

still, i'm praying for my major alumni feature to be settled soon. it's the only thing left on my back right now: PLEASE GIMME A REPLY SOON MS SERENA!!!! *pleads*

recently, i'm beginning to understand the 'perversity' term that we used to study in gothic literature. i guess it really comes with age (not that i'm that old) where your thoughts tend to get complicated and go haywire and you still think it's okay. i'm having these really weird thoughts (many of which have been translated into action) recently like, deliberately creating awkwardness when i actually want to avoid it, or purposely annoying someone when i really meant to be nice, or just trying to be late when it was crucial for me to be punctual... i just feel like making mistakes when i can well avoid it.

i was having my driving test last monday and i came to a sharp bend in the road. i saw the bend from afar and i knew i should slow down and perhaps shift gear else it would cost me lots of demerits, but i just didn't want to do it. part of my brain was screaming out for me to slow down but the other half was tempting me to make the mistake. so woooosh~* i went round the bend at 50km/h... luckily i still managed to pass the test.

i've no idea what's going through my head. but in any case i'm quite sure i shouldn't be allowed to go on like this.

ehh, since i have time to blabber on, i might as well continue with it. i'll most prolly disappear for some time anyway.

a few types of people who make me really annoyed:

1. I'm Busier Than You.
well, it happens. sometimes it's better to blog about how busy you are than chat with someone about it. it's suppose to be a form of stress release isn't it? how would you feel when you've only just started to comment on a single arduous task (out of the many) and you're interrupted halfway with "haiya, you can't be busier than me. i have blahblahblahblah..." *rolls eyes* i wasn't trying to compare who's the busier one, i was just trying to tell you that i'm having a busy time and there you go telling me how much busier you are. and how do you know i can't be as busy or even busier? it's like telling me to shut up cuz my complaints aren't worth listening to. my attempt to share my troubles has 'evolved' into a session where i become Aunt Agony. and yep, i'm not busy, not busy at all.

2. Didn't You Know?
i can't recall how many times this has happened. you comment about how interesting something is, and another person goes "you don't know meh? i knew it since blahblahblah..." helllooo, i don't care about WHEN i came to know it, i was merely commenting on how interesting it is. worse when i'm actually aware and was just pointing it out to start on a conversation topic and i get slapped in the face by such a remark. yeah, so the point is that i'm a mountain tortoise right?

3. I Can't Appreciate Your Joke
not that i expect anyone to laugh at all of my jokes (often poorly attempted), but to ignore? it should be known by now that i absolutely hate to be ignored intentionally; it's utter disrespect for me as an individual, much less as a friend. it also irks me when i try to make a joke to loosen up a heavy atmosphere and someone gives me a stare and says "what's wrong with you." it's not like i WANT to joke for the sake of it; i can well keep quiet and that's probably worse because then everyone will prolly think that i'm having a bad hair day. i don't ask for laughter but to appear irritated? you think i'm that free to want to entertain and annoy you?

the list goes on.

okay i'm starting to reveal the evil side of me. sometimes tolerance is necessary, though it oftens leads to unhealthy relationships.

on with work, tonnes of work.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

2:36 PM

when you realise that it's quite a mockery.
currently listening to: None [Interviewing Soon]

when you look out the window and all you can think of is to go off to some faraway place.

when you lie in bed and all you can think of are the countless permutations of what might happen the next day.

when you stare into space and all you can think of is how relationships don't seem to work out.

when you stare at moving traffic and all you can think of is how to get away.

when you stand in the crowd and all you can think of is how difficult it is to find like-minded people to share your thoughts.

when you heave a long sigh and all you can think of is how few of those it is that you can do.


as such.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, February 16, 2008

11:18 PM

daijoubu kara.
currently listening to: 27th December [BoA]

其实遥不可及的距离造就了梦想
人总得为些什么而被迫不断地努力
却在追逐梦想的过程中忽略了许多微小的幸福
那放开梦想是不是比较值得呢？

用更宽阔的视野来看待这个世界
就不会再在下意识里变成另外一个人吧。

用自己的方式，做自己想做的事...

每个人都认为自己在伪装
事实上也的确有这个可能
因此而把自己想成一个超复杂的生物体
不自觉地认为自己生命里的主角只有自己。

会不会有哪一天，发现整出戏里就只有主角一个角色
又会不会有哪一天，心甘情愿地让某人取代自己成为生命里的主角。

“一万次的尝试都不行，感到沮丧，但说不定在第一万次的尝试中，会发觉有什么改变了。”

这一年的座右铭是：想要尽情地乐在其中，直到再也感觉不到一点快乐为止。


mass bai nian on 9feb~


as you can see, it was a happy day. just look at the smile on our faces, the pearly whites at the perfect degree, the overwhelming radiance that puts the flash function to shame since we were more than capable of lighting up the photo ourselves...


and then take a look at this, so enthusiastic we were that we decided to take a shot at the void deck. despite the lack of any commendable scenery, our spirits were high. despite the fact that nobody was around to help us take a shot, our clever minds made us turn to the staircase as a makeshift tripod (which decided that the notice board is part of the group). yanwan has decided to pose with her phone, perhaps eyeing for an opportunity to be the offical face of nokia's new line of handphones. again, happy smiles...



BUT WHO WOULD'VE GUESSED...



behold... the most candid shot of the year...


introducing the lady in pink, judy to, with her mouth opened in traditional choral singing manner as she led the pack in our yelling for the camera to hold on. notice that carine and yanwan were diligently emulating her body language; model students indeed. apparently liping and michelle were never the ones who would take the risk of being caught unaware, though the latter unfortunately blinked at the crucial second. alrina, on the other hand, seems undecided between yelling or posing, and this moment was wonderfully captured by the sharp-eyed camera. and then you will notice yours truly at her moment of extremely slow reaction, with her eyes opened so wide at a phenomenon that apparently no one else bothered to even glance at. is that ms juliana teo who seems to be looking in the same direction? with a solid foundation of nearly 10 years of friendship, has she mastered the incredible skill of receiving xinyi's brain signals? no one can tell (eyes too small)... meanwhile, it seems that the camera has decided it is tired of taking so many of its master's photos hence jiehui has been eliminated from the frame.



THAT IS NOT ALL...




behold the 'kung-fu' shot, suggested by yours truly who was influenced by Jay Chou's latest movie. we realise that jiehui is back into the frame since the master's commands must always be obeyed. she joins liping and carine in waving their fist at the camera lest it decides to exclude anyone else again. it may not be clear but alrina has chosen to display her 'internal strength' by going so deep into meditation that her facial expression is... weird. judy to does a more glam version of meditation but her facial expression is nonetheless... weird. word of caution: it is likely that meditation results in weird facial expressions, so beware. meanwhile, michelle and juliana involve themselves in a brutal 'cut-throat' fight, with yanwan the monkey god stuck in the middle, much unfortunately. and then you may have noticed a certain wide-eyes yours truly performing an unsuccessful rendition of bruce lee, but ending up looking more like liang popo 从出江湖instead.


we're done. *winks*

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

1:06 AM

.
currently listening to: NIL [No Mood]

very busy.
can't focus on study even when i finally have some time.
irated about being 'rudely' slighted once more.
self-esteem almost hits rock bottom.

musicexpressjapdrivingtestserenangalumnicontactsstupidfatseniorrevisionrotaracthairposterandflyerdesignishouldstarttogetalifesponsorsappearancebulgingfatsseverelackofsleepnonexistentrecessweekgirodeductionproblemsoveryoutofplaceamongothersalumniinterviewpersonalgroomingincompententeditorileftmyipodcordinhallblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahandthelistgoesonandonandonwithmoreandmoreandmoreandmoreandmoreandmoretocome.

it's a chain reaction you see.
my brain (and body) is not working the way it should be.
professionalism's still a long way from me.

you're looking at someone who is completely messed up.

let's worry about the driving test first.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Thursday, February 07, 2008

11:08 PM

tachibana keita FC!
currently listening to: 27th December [BoA]

totally, totally in love.

橘庆太FC!!!









i like it i like it.

the enthusiasm.
*beams*

happy lunar new year!

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, February 02, 2008

10:04 PM

waste time.
currently listening to: Blind [Lifehouse]

hey you!






















yes, you!!!









get back on track right now!










that's tonnes of stuff that you haven't cleared!










be yourself!










and stop eating so much!!

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。