we are notw into the semester.
currently listening to: My Prayer [BoA]

hoooo boy.

i really wanna cut my hair short. i taboleh tahan liao. either that or i have to find some way to make my hair easier to handle than the hay-ish state it is in right now. i just can't stand it anymore when it's in a mess whenever i happen to glance at the mirror.

time's gonna be really tight once courses start proper tomorrow onwards, with lessons as late as 8.30pm (worse still when the day starts 8.30am). oh well, i planned the timetable myself anyway, and the fact that i have a 4-day week makes things a liiittle better for the semester(which would have been a 5-day week if i had taken public admin as planned). oh, as well as the fact that i got jap as an elective. *muahahhaahah*

somehow the angel of courage decided to wave his little wand over my head this sem so i'm taking on General History of China as an elective. yes, it's suicide, but i might die with a little more valor since it does take alot of guts to do that. it's funny that i think the subject's interesting yet i'm falling asleep once i start on the readings. even literature wasn't that bad. maybe i'm subconsciously liking english literature more than chinese history??

.......
no, no. i'm kidding.

bleh. that's that for academics. i'm hoping i may be able to stay at 4.0 but it doesn't seem to bode too well does it?

seriously, i need to go to the temple lah.

this is turning out to resemble one of my many complaint posts.

things have been taking strange turns recently, like how i end up still doing bizmag for music express when i was just aiming to avoid that job by applying for stage manager. so right now it's stage/publicity/bizmag. why bizmag?!?!?! why why why?!!!! *tears out hair*

so i shall be humbly mailing and calling up various companies to ask for sponsorship in the week to come; a job that i am so sick of. and this time it's 50 compared to the 10 i had to do for rotaract.

aww awww, maybe it's not that bad. i do get something out of it if ME turns out well.

on top of stuff, there's this flu that never seems to go away. it insists on torturing my breathing system for one month and running, blocking up my ears and filling up my nose so i'm forced to breath through my mouth that i can't even climb a simple flight of stairs without feeling breathless.

i'm not feeling too bad about being busy, other than the fact that it may affect my grades. the holidays made me wanna stretch my limits this semester, only that i never expected the academics to be tougher as compared to last semester. it's frustrating when it's either one or the other; if only i'm able to multi-task as well as some of those inhuman creatures people.

but it helps when you realise there's someone working as hard as you out there, or maybe even harder. the fact that tingxu's coping all alone in north carolina makes me feel like i'm making a mountain out of a molehill. 2 semesters, let's thrash through them man, then the pigs can finally meet up in december for christmas.

i'm feeling a little strange lately. maybe it's the fact the the teenage years will be over soon and i'll be officially 20 once my birthday's here. something, just something...

i can survive the sem, and then i can survive anything else.




well err, at least anything else in uni.


prayers for aunt.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。