it's okay. currently listening to: Chun Guang Zha Xie [Huang Yao Ming]
i say.
it's normal to flunk university exams. even more so for the very first uni exam. even more so when you haven't been touching the topics for two whole years. because I, who have been on a break for a mere 6 months, am gonna flunk my first uni exam too.
come on, the world is with you. leave those foreign muggers aside; we are from different worlds.
the spirit of the stuff. make something out of the learning.
and i don't mean results.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Thursday, November 15, 2007
10:44 PM
blehhhhhh currently listening to: Promise You [ANYBAND]
arghhh. ARGHHHHHH. there goes the paper.
i should have just spent my time speed-writing.
arghhh.
i know everyone's complaining.
3 more papers to go.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
2:37 PM
bonkers currently listening to: Promise You [ANYBAND]
wooo! weee!! WAAAAAH!!!! ANYBAND!!!
WOOHOOO!!!
i love them i love them i love them.
i can't get enough of it. the songs have been playing for 5 days, on repeat.
ANYBAND!!! MUSIC TO SAVE THE WORLD.
promise you~~
i am going mad. from the realisation of the lack of mugging.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Monday, November 12, 2007
8:57 PM
yeah currently listening to: 怕什么[Jolin Tsai]
sometimes i run out of words to express myself. for those who care.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Thursday, November 08, 2007
11:39 AM
anytime anyday with you~~~ currently listening to: Talk Play Love [ANYBAND]
the anyband commercial!!! *squeals*
AT LAST!!!!
i'm going crazy~ i was in front of the computer the whole of yesterday just waiting for it to be available. and then qiqian sent me the download!!!! god sent, i tell you, that girl.
beyond words, it's damnnnn cool. anywhere you go, anywhere you go i'll be there.
ANYBAND! MUSIC TO SAVE THE WORLD!
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Monday, November 05, 2007
7:40 PM
affirmation currently listening to: Affirmation [Savage Garden]
this has always been one of my all-time favourites. i've always thought there was something powerful about the song. but i listened to it just a while ago and...
the sudden realisation of the message nearly made me break into tears. not sad tears, but more of recognition. touched.
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I believe that trust is more important than monogamy I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul I believe that family is worth more than money or gold I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists I believe in love surviving death into eternity
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
-- Affirmation, Savage Garden
and i just felt like saying it again... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE FULL VERSION OF THE ANYBAND COMMERCIAL!!! countdown 3 days! *squeals*
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Sunday, November 04, 2007
4:49 PM
SUUUUGOI!!!! currently listening to: Arigatou [Tange Sakura]
wow wow wow!
i just saw the new Anycall commercial. it's so cool!
it features XIAH and Boa, Bora and Tablo too! like the gathering of the young da pai-s of the korean music industry lahhh.
there's suppose to be a longer version with a clearer storyline. can't wait~~~~
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Saturday, November 03, 2007
9:13 PM
statements currently listening to: Arigatou [Tange Sakura]
a few realisations i had of myself recently:
#1. i am bad at facial expressions. so half the time my face doesn't show how i feel and the people around don't get my mood and that leads to misunderstandings at times. can't remember the number of times people ask if i'm in a bad mood when i'm absolutely elated that day. the conclusion?
i may have to look into the mirror more.
#2. i have no sense of urgency at all. somehow i lost all sense of motivation right after the A levels. like a runner at the end of the marathon, a towel squeezed dry, a car running low on petrol. i'm studying all the time, but it doesn't feel like i'm preparing for the exams. it becomes simply... a routine.
and then i stare blankly at my fellow peers.
#3. i'm getting away from the 'i-have-to-ace-my-test' mentality. i'm even thinking that it's kinda useless, the things i'm studying. eventually, it's the experience. ultimately, it's the guts. the fact that i'm here shows something.
i've never had a dream come true before.
#4. i am materially satisfied. this is an empirical statement, only that i never seem to think so. learning to be content with your lot must be the most difficult lesson in life.
i still want to buy more CDs though.
#5. i used to think it's important to have many friends. then you grow up and realised they are merely acquaintances. if i had a friend who is willing to go through anything for me, whom i never have to hide anything from, whom i can always rely on for support... even if that's the only friend i have in the world, i'm still luckier than many others.
thank you.
#6. i have this serious case of split personalities. i say 'serious' because i know that i have split personalities (most of those people don't have a clue). and when i say 'split', it doesn't mean just TWO distinct personalities, but alot alot alot... maybe 5 or 6? and i kind of lost track of the original somehow.
the self is the most difficult to comprehend.
#7. much as i think i am a cheena person, my friends are really a little ang-mohish. in fact, the most cheena clique i've been in is probably the happy family. i wonder why. i advocate cheenaism yeah, i'm part of the AAPC!
which i think only has two members. sadly.
#8. i cannot look at somone in the eye for more than a minute. i simply can't do it. that's why i always lose in the 'stare' game. they say the eyes are the windows to the soul. i figured maybe i don't want anybody near my 'soul', neither do i want to look too deeply into their 'souls'. doesn't that make me antisocial?
i prefer to believe that it's self-defense.
#9. whenever i think it's time for a change, the body is always weaker than the mind. i kind of think that the surroundings play a part too, especially when there are too many commitments, impressions and expectations. still, it is necessary.
whatever goes.
#10. in the book 'happiness in a nutsell', there was a line that says, "what made us believe that if we don't forgive someone, they suffer?" it made alot of sense to me, but i didn't learn from it. it comes naturally for me to ignore someone when i'm angry. no rants, no fights, no yellings (which i used to do in childhood). in the subconscience, it is the greatest punishment from me to not forgive.
hmmmmmm.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Friday, November 02, 2007
7:55 PM
minna, a-ri-ga-to-u currently listening to: Arigatou [Tange Sakura]
でも止まらない 胸がつまるほど 今が大好きで だけどすぎてゆく それはむかし泣いた夢のカケラのよう
-- CCS, Arigatou
was listening to the CCS oldies and came across the line which i now (finally) have the ability to comprehend. it says:
but i can't stop it. it chokes me inside. i like the present, but it will always pass. like a fragment of the dream i cried for long ago.
