com204 com204 com204...
currently listening to: Proposal [Xiah (Original by Kangta)]

i did my first interview with a stranger today!

damn scared.
loitered around for like 1 hour before finally having the courage to just do it.
and that was after calling regina and getting her yell at me to "JUST GO IN LAH AND YOU'LL BE DONE."

muahahha. thanks for the 'zhuang dan'.

anyways, i finally had some time to listen to kangta's album today.
and i'm impressed. *muses*
his music is like... simple but engaging.
it's like you really know him after listening to his music.
a sincere and honest expression of himself.
it's the first time i felt this from a singer.
really something. *nods head*

okay back to the assignment.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

5:51 PM

w-inds. saikoooo!!!!
currently listening to: Special Thanx [w-inds.]

sometimes I just wanna shout it out loud…



爱死你们了啦！！！



管他什么人气下降 .
管他什么封杀.



管他什么负面新闻.
管他什么恶毒批评.




屁.




再讲我扁你.



当我以为你们被时代抛在后头时.
原来你们也在辛苦地努力.



尽管不曾看过你们现场演唱.
尽管不会疯狂追着你们跑.



尽管有些爬墙嫌疑.
尽管只是在家里听你们的音乐...



还是很爱很爱很爱你们.



无可取代的 NO. 1
大爱~~~~

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Monday, September 24, 2007

1:28 AM

i must learn to keep away from the computer.
currently listening to: Lovin U [Kingone]

the past three days have been spent in total idleness.

and the consequences of that shall be reflected in the days to come.
the many many many things yet to be done...
*shakes head helplessly*

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Sunday, September 16, 2007

10:32 PM

也会有这种时候。。。
currently listening to: 适应 [迷路兵]

心有点乱。
怎么也读不下书。
这星期的测验和作业，没办法了。


真想就这样闲下去。

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Friday, September 14, 2007

1:37 AM

a moment.
currently listening to: The Bus Passing By [In Hall]

the mood is sad. but not because of the stupid dinner thingy lah.
life is unpredictable, risky and exhausting.
it isn't that easy to create new life after all.

anyways. below is the entry:

okay instead of returning to my usual mode of mugging since the last entry, i've been doing this creeepy stalker thing by viewing the profiles of my CS schoolmates. and that was after two episodes of 'return of the condor heroes'.

people must be thinking i siao.

anyways, i came across some really interesting people that i've seen around in school, except that i never knew they were so.. er, interesting. pardon the lack of vocabulary (which kinda explains why journalism isn't suitable for me). it's really true when they say you should never get stuck with first impressions because they seem so different frommy first impressions of them.

... my schoolmates are not bad. *muses*

to assure my friends that i haven't gone totally off-wire, i did do some work, except that there is a really pathetic pool of resources to work with. for one, the PI reports thingy don't work even though i'm in NTU hall right now. so in the midst of struggling with the system i find myself in the roster page where my hidden stalker tendencies surfaced (from hanging around too much with jingfang). AND... condor heroes has just got more exciting.

i think TV may just turn out to be the cause of my downfall.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Thursday, September 13, 2007

11:29 PM

meditate-d
currently listening to: The Bus Passing By [In Hall]

it was the first time i got a bible for a gift, a farewell gift at that. when given by a friend whom i've depended heavily on for direction, i knew it meant something. somehow, it kinda struck me that i've got to learn to struggle out things on my own from now on. stop relying on everyone else, you've gotta stand on your own.

dinner was suppose to be a lonely affair today, since everyone either had to go home or had something else to attend to. for the first time in ntu (or perhaps in my life), i was going to have dinner outside on my own. despite all my rants and chants of "GU DAN DE REN~~~", i was rather apprehensive of it actually.

it was then that i realised the pathetically small social circle i have right now. i called people up but they were busy, and my closest friends are all faaarrrr in the east. and i haven't got many new friends in uni that i can comfortably call out for dinner without fearing that it may be awkward. the consequences of missing orientation.

so it was going to be me and myself and i.

in the end, adeline managed to steal some time off to have an early dinner with me before heading off to clarke quay with her OG mates. grateful i was, but i felt bad too since she was doing it specially for me and i don't like to trouble anyone at all if i can help it.

i am starting to think that i'm loser, really.

bah. it's only dinner. what's the big deal. not like i would die if i had it on my own. it's in the mind lah.

on another note, i'm starting to like my biz and finance people =)

moving on, I JAMMED THE SCI PRINTER AGAIN TODAY. i can't understand why it always has to be me jamming the printer. i really won't mind giving up the chance to others. doesn't help when there are so many people in the lab waiting for their stuff to be printed and i can only stand there with a red red face saying sorry.

i really have this... bad affinity with machines.

then came the IMC tutorial, which suddenly became a discussion on traditional journalism versus digitalized or citizen journalism (yes, the cherian george content). prof lee was like, trying hard to get all of us engaged and voice our opinions but the words just won't come out of me somehow. guess i wasn't in the right state of mind, which always happens during his tutorials, strangely. i wonder if it has something to do with the room, or the many people, or the prof... arghh. IT'S JUST ME LAR. stop putting the blame on everything else.

so such internal dialogues with yours truly have been taking place inside my head recently. i wonder if it's a sign of schizophrenia-- i might start talking to the walls or the like. my friends, please beware. i might bring a plush hippo around and introduce him as my boyfriend or something.

oh and i subscribed to MOBTV!!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA. finally i have access to the old tcs dramas that my brother and i are totally crazy about. i'm watching return of the condor heroes now by the way. and there's FU MAN REN JIAN on the weekends too!! it's like one of the best best productions they have lah! thank god for old dramas, cuz i really don't care for the new ones.

off to do research~

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, September 08, 2007

2:28 AM

certain people...
currently listening to: Hao Ting [Xu Ru Yun]

different worlds.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Friday, September 07, 2007

1:22 AM

headache.
currently listening to: Nothing [It's A Peaceful Night]

i've been an annoying person recently.
but once again...

because this happens so frequently.
i know i'm fortunate.

night ride back hall.
a moment of self-reflection.

i really, really.
want to make them proud.

there is a limit.
realistic.

but what happened to the mood?
those things aren't suppose to ruin my day.

the mind isn't functioning very well these days.

thank you. all.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。