if i could, then i would. lalalala~
currently listening to: Wherever You Will Go [The Calling]

i shall not complain about the phone that is eternally in the silent mode.
the phone that i am having trouble looking for.
... it must be in the house somewhere.

just when you finally need it, it disappears.
wow.

okay so i have been experiencing rather frequent mood swings recently. i can just turn into ice in the split of a second, then a volcano the next before the sun shines down again. ahhh... sounds familiar doesn't it, especially to the pigs co. ah, hahahahaha... *sweatdrops*

no! i'm not going back to the old ways don't worry.

i've been reading magazines (that's part of my job anyways) that ramble on and on about mid-life crises and how one should deal with them. isn't anyone out there aware of teenage crises or something of the like. because i'm pretty sure that kinda explains my roll-eyes-and-feel-annoyed-about-everything-and-anything attitude right now.

i'm rather convinced that this is a turning point here.

or perhaps, when you can't see anything down the path that you have chosen and you glance back only find that you've not travelled very far after all, when you become aware that you are and have to be breaking away from support, when you are struggling to hold on to your beliefs and principles in face of so many temptations that you simply can't resist, when you weigh your sacrifices and doubt if the rewards so far are worth it, when you start to realise it's not only about hard work in the constraints of reality...

you get very moody.
even in the subconscience.

i need to vent my frustrations.
words are definitely not enough.
ehhh? *light bulb*
exercising might be good.
i'm gaining fat anyways.
*nods head*

and then.
find a way to overcome them.

erm, i just wanted to say this really badly.
i miss macey.
haiii.

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