不可思议事件no.2。
currently listening to: The First Cut is the Deepest [Sheryl Crow]

prepare for war at home tomorrow.
both ntu communication studies and nus law have accepted me.
alas! the most unexpected of the unexpected.

am i being blessed by a guardian angel or something?
or maybe i did a lot of good in my previous life.

strangely, despite the diarrhoea i had today, i'm feeling pretty good. the fact that i actually passed for those tests and interviews... is something that i've never experienced. my past experiences in failing them left me with zero confidence for such stuff, especially the interviews. i recall going down to tkss then they said they raised their standards to 237, i recall appealing for tjc and they wanted an essay, i recall going for interview at my mum's office and never getting a reply after that, i recall the scholarship reply that never came. these, and many others, may seem to be so minor they probably won't have any impact if they happened on others, yet they are like shadows and nightmares that just flash themselves over and over again when i'm faced with tests and interviews once more.

they probably still will. but at least i passed the communication studies and law interview. finally... something that can ease the self-condemnation even if it's just by little.

but if it turns out to be some greater power watching over me...
i thank you, still.

this sounds like i'm over the wall doesn't it. well, not exactly because this also means that i'll have to sort it out with my parents on which course to accept. 摊牌, that's what we say, and 顺便翻桌子 as well. i really really expected to fail and get posted to business when i applied for law under my father's insistence. now somehow i realised i'm not that good at fortune-telling.

i wonder if i'll be able to hold onto my determination to take communications. like regina said so many times: because i'm so easily influenced and won over by convincing arguments, i might just deviate from my original aim just like that. ahh... perhaps the only thing that others have not managed to talk me out of is my obsession with w-inds.? *wahhahahhaha* 100% devotion because they are just so very important to me.

and anyway, i really don't think i can cope with law. i don't even have what i takes to read law i'm really wondering why they accepted me. this is almost as puzzling as that A for literature. i declare this the 不可思议事件no.2。 just take a look at my 'ability' to articulate my thoughts, and my 'ability' to hold on to my stand, and my 'ability' to defend myself when under attack.

no! i not lawyer 料(material) lah!

"please do it early if you are going to reject the results."
the inivigilator's words.
urm, i'm going to have a little difficulty doing that.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。