just felt like blogging.
currently listening to: 银河と迷路 [Tokyo Ska Paradise]

i got a tiffany cuff bangle from my mum as a reward for the A levels results.
i got quite a generous growth in my bank account from my dad and aunt for the A level results too.

and i hereby announce that this is the FIRST time my family has rewarded me for my academics, though the government does so once in a while.

and so the tiffany cuff bangle is the most expensive asset i've got on me since i was born (even more expensive than my precious precious ipod video).

aahhhhh-nd, i'm quite at a loss right now.
well, i haven't said thank you and don't think i'll get around doing that.
the words won't come out even if i beg so let's not try.

anyways, i think this is really overrated; the way people are making so much out of my results. do they realise that i'm only ONE out of the thousand over people with the same results? it's not even a perfect score or something (which another hundred over people have). it won't guarantee me anything, not a place in SCI or LAW or a scholarship that pays all the school fees you know. i dunno why everyone thinks so. the point is that it's not exactly excellent.

okay, now the people reading this blog are gonna think i'm a she-jerk, roll their eyes and say "WHAT MORE YOU WANT?!!!"

but really, the results are not excellent if you look at the statistics.

STILL, i'm satisfied.
AND, i'm happy for the gifts and compliments.
hahahahahaha.
such a weird person i am.

one's gotta learn to appreciate. like for example, i was a little sore over that B for Chinese since results day, but really, who knows if i might have scored worse if got an A for chinese? fate works in a strange way; you never know may happen.

but it's over. this chapter and the hoo-ha over results are past tense.
look forward, look ahead! aruiteru!!!

what do i see?
the office.

work is tomorrow again. a day of, um, typing and printing and photocopying and binding and cutting magazines and filing and working out timetables and order lists and trying to look busy when in fact i have nothing much to do. nooope, i'm not complaining, really. just look into my eyes. i'm just feeling guilty that my boss has to dig out work for me to do when she's so busy herself and i'm like adding on to her long list of assignments and increasing her stress levels.

it goes something like this: i'm her colleague's daughter, and so she thinks it's her responsibilty to give me proper work experience and she feels guilty whenever she sees me wasting the time away hence the digging of work for me to do. not that i mind since they are really simple tasks, but they are really that simple so i finish them off fast and then the same thing happens again. sometimes i think it would be better if i wasn't working there since i don't seem to be helping much. AND high-heels are really... i wanna throw them outta the window.

anyways, i been to TTSH recently since my eyes are on the verge of failing me but the doctors can't seem to find anything wrong with it. maybe it's the specs, and the serverely shortened visits to lalaland. but anyways, the point is that, i've quite a new interpretation of doctors and the medical sector now. let's just say it's for the better. yeah, so tingxu, if you're reading this, i won't mind anymore if you end up being a doctor. heh.

well, a doctor is someone really *toots*, but these *toots* people have the ability to do good for others however *toots* i might think they are. their job, essentially and fundamentally, is built on the meaningful foundation of helping others, and i think that this fact alone is really really great. i'm filled with respect for this. but sadly not all of them stay on such a basis, and some of them AGGRAVATE and totally DEVIATE from saving to KILLING. just thinking about it makes me boil, i'll never forgive those idiots. i was really condemning, but i have to admit there are good ones so...

it's a really noble job, but not all doctors are noble.
shame on those who aren't.

oh yes, and i must mention my new obsession with ONE PIECE. i can't find the VCDs anymore in singapore and i wonder why.

i wonder how, i wonder why~~~ *hums*

ahhh, diversion. i'm getting really off the point with this post.
shall blog when i'm more clear-headed.
off to the terebi.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。