hmmmmmm
currently listening to: Dong Le [Tank]

each one of us is different.
but perhaps we view loneliness in the same way too?
and when i look around at the people...
nope, i'm no different from anybody else.
but let's hope i won't stay like that.

anyways i'm starting to think that i'm actually quite a cynic. *wahhahaa*
skeptical about this, doubtful about that.
like nothing is more trustworthy than the memories i've had.
like i just wanna go back and stay there.
yeah maybe, maybe i'm the one.
so sometimes looking into the future is actually rather hard.
*squints*

but everything about the past is actually gone isn't it.
every single link i thought still existed is just my mind at work.
there's a loooong way to go.

"your best days are not behind you, but ahead of you."

something changmin said.
well, i thought something might have struck.

i was at the doctor's with my grandmother a few days back.
the doctor was really chatty and he kept talking to me.
somehow i told him i was aiming for communication studies and he asked why.
and then i couldn't answer.

"... interest? it's just interest."
"then what about communications interests you?"

i really wanted to say more but i just couldn't put them to words.
and then somehow the topic got diverted to botox.
don't ask me why.

maybe i haven't really found my way yet after all.

don't worry, this isn't a depressing entry. hahaha.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。