i wanna go back to school.
currently listening to: Bye Bye Love [Yuri Sangja]

i had to work on university admission and scholarhsip applications (last day) today so i am currently off from work and slacking at home. oh, my w-inds. and tvxq DVDs arrived yesterday!! so super happy cuz it's faster than expected, but the w-inds. THANKS Tour Concert DVD was out of stock so i'm still feeling a little sad over this.

i am also rather guilty about taking leave since my boss seems to be very busy and stressed up recently. and she's so nice to me too, i wonder if i am taking advantage of it. and i find it really hard on her that she has to find work for me to do and at the time time be engaged in her own. ahh... not to mention that i am an absolute klutz at work. i think there hasn't been a day where i've not made any mistakes at work. these includes jamming the printer thrice when it is in hot demand by the entire office, jamming the photocopier because it simply refuses to work for me and i wonder why, printing the same stuff over and over again without realising it, binding the papers in the wrong direction etc etc.

yes, i am an office girl.

but i am really quite amazed at the fact that such mundane stuff can keep me so busy for the entire day. maybe it's because i've got an incredibly slow computer when it comes to printing, burning CDs, scanning and opening powerpoint presentations. and really, the New York people are so fond of sending such large presentations that my computer always hangs when i try to open them. they are all like, a few hundred MBs at least?? now you know why i jam the printer.

AND, i am the daughter of the IS director, so this means i am really being scrutinized by everyone. my work performance has been really lousy so far so i'm feeling quite low about myself. BUT, there happens to be another temp worker in the office working for another brand, and apparently people have mistaken her to be me, so i'm hoping that they'd continue like that so i wouldn't marr my mother's reputation in the office.

ahhh, working in the office is rather tough. maybe it's cuz i have zero working experience so i tend to be a little slow at work. and some of the people in the office, especially in my mother's department, have known me since young, and i am so used to calling them aunties and uncles that i can't seem to rid the habit now that i'm working for the office. it seems weird that i am calling them "patrick uncle" and "gabrielle auntie" in the office, but it seems even weirder for me not to since they are really my elders. not to mention that i have to bother them alot due to my clumsiness in handling the computers and machines.

oh and because the IS director is like in the top 5 list of the "longest employee in the office" ranking, she comes in late quite often and takes more time for lunch than the standard 1 hour, so this means that i, the new temp with lousy work performance, is doing the same thing too. talk about a bad reputation.

i miss school like crazyyyy.

i miss macey tooooo. maybe i've not quite got over it yet, especially since i was looking for him in vain on results day and ended up chickening out when jingfang called to tell me that she spotted him. so there it goes, the last chance of seeing him; we will never meet again. i hope he takes care.

maybe i should get a lemon tree for remembrance.



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