2Nov ~ 23Nov.
*prays*

currently listening to: Tonight [DBSK]

i'm going to have to ban myself from the computer.

okay i knew i should have done this aeons ago.
but there are just too many things i can't miss you know.
like the dbsk poisoning case two days ago.
and i had no idea they were so popular lah.
across korea, japan, china, thailand, malaysia etc.
they are the hottest everywhere.
*shakes head*

but dbsk is good.
really good.
*thumbs up*

anyway.
farewell was today.
it wasn't as good as the previous farewells i've had.
since we know we'll all be back in school again tomorrow.
and the day after tomorrow.
and many other days too for remedials and consultations.

but mr gay sang a song for a01 and a02 during farewell today!
the bunch of us were so touched lah.
almost felt like crying when he was singing alone on stage.
awwww. we all better do well for history.

this is a rather significant stage in life ne?
i thought alot when i got home.
and as usual came to many conclusions of my own.
this also means that little studying was done today.
-________-"

de-macification.
this time it's for real.
it's time to grow up from the past.
i'll keep the memories.
but there won't be any more.

okayy.
full steam ahead for A levels.
13 days countdown.
it'll be over soon.

i wanna be able to stare at the sky without feeling the guilt.
note: a haze-less sky hor.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, October 14, 2006

11:57 PM

so i've decided to blog today.

currently listening to: Yu Tian [Stefanie Sun]

my hand feels a little weird.
i can't seem to exert as much strength when i write.
it feels kinda light.
as if it's not properly connected to my arm so there isn't the 'just right' feeling there.

hmm. maybe i've been writing too much.

so we are left with 20+ days to the A's.
i don't feel prepared and i don't think i ever will.
i'll be happy if i can retain my prelim results.
but with the 1988 standards, i guess it's impossible.

but i've decided to do whatever i can anyway.
i won't try to mug very very hard these few days.
cuz i have this feeling that i will end up feeling so wasted and crappy like how i did during the prelims period.
can't afford mood swings during the A's.

just do whatever you can, xinyi.
yepp. you don't have to push yourself too hard.

then again, please don't think you can simply slack.

other than the A's, the farewell assembly's also near.
farewell assembly.
... only 2 days left.

but i was already very happy when i saw him that day.
it's as if i haven't done so in a long long time.
you should have seen my reaction. haha.
totally embarrassed after that.

i feel contented.
it's enough for me.
let us just brush pass each other once more.
and we'll never meet again.

heh. so drama ar.
must be the novels i've been reading lately.

anyway.
to 05a02 if you're reading.

GOGO FIGHTING!!!
make it through the A's together!
every single one of us.

we need to mug.
the whole world is mugging.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Monday, October 09, 2006

2:03 PM

melancholic

currently listening to: 问候 [DBSK- Hero Jaejoong]

very sad.
very depressed.
i wanna cry lar.

i read a super sad story.
while listening to super sad music.
so now i am super duper wooper sad.
*sobx*

i can't snap out of it lar.
i knew i shouldn't have started on the story.
haiii.

fly away, fly away... love...

gosh.
my heart feels like it's squeezing itself.
i can't stop sighing.
haiii.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

6:21 PM

can someone tell me what the problem is

currently listening to: HUG [Dong Bang Shin Gi]
-- gosh i can't get enough of this song~~

so this is how my results look like.
amendments to Econs and GP.

CHINESE A: C
LIT: E
ECONS: B
HISTORY: A

GP: B4
AO MATH: A1

strangely, it has turned miraculously from the worst results into the best results i've got since i came into tpjc.

ABC4.
two more grades away from my brother's ABB3.
kinda far actually, considering it's tpjc standards.
... ahhh never mind.
i should be contented.

but i got ignored when i went back home yesterday.
so yep i was and am currently rather depressed.
foul mood today.

and can i stop thinking about wanting to have a life.
only 1 month left okayy.
ENDURE.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。