tachibana keita, solo.

currently listening to: Nothing [Too Dejected]


keita is going solo.

but w-inds. will not be disbanded.



click


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i have to say that there wasn't a tinge of happiness with me when i heard that.
no excitement, no anticipation, no smiles.
i was so shocked, so disappointed, so damn angry.
saw the clip and thought to myself:
what the hell does he think he is doing?

i've always hated it when people tell me ryohei and ryuichi seemed to be doing nothing in w-inds. i've always hated it when people tell me that w-inds. can do without ryohei and ryuichi. i've always hated it when people tell me that keita can just go solo.

i've always said that keita won't be able to be that good without both of them singing and dancing along with him, that w-inds. won't be as good without both of them together with him. i've always said that the three of them will always go together.

and now his decision seems to undermine everything that i've stood for.

i was so crestfallen when i heard the news.
i read forums that chide those who don't support him in this decision.
i was thinking thinking and thinking to myself till 5am in the morning.
but i still can't convince myself that i should be happy.

i'm not used to seeing his name without ryohei and ryuichi.
i'm not used to seeing his face in the PV without ryohei and ryuichi.
i'm not used to seeing him perform live without ryohei and ryuichi.
i'm not used to thinking 'keita' without thinking 'ryohei' and 'ryuichi'.

... but it's not about whether i like it or not.
he has chosen to go this way, the others have allowed him to do so.
and even though i hate his decision, i have to go along with it.

... but suddenly tachibana keita doesn't seem to be like a familiar name to me anymore.

看着他们5年的成长，心里早已清楚他们并不会永远都这样下去。虽然常常想逃避这个现实，不想要他们有任何的改变，但还是会担心， 如果继续这样下去，他们在几年后就会消失不见了吧。所以面对庆太的决定，我实在是很难表达出心中的情绪。事情终于要发生了吗？ 原来在5年里看似一直保持着当年的心态的他，真的已经长大了。这样说一个比我大3年的人，是有一些怪怪的，但我相信每一个在这5年来一直他们着他们的fans也会有相同的感触。或许是我本身很讨厌长大和改变的过程，所以对于这突如其来的消息更是难以接受。一切感觉就在改变当中，而这种感觉现在更加更加的真实了，就算自己有多么的厌恶，也只能用无可奈何的心情来接受。

也会担心，这样子庆太真的会比较好吗？虽然做了5年的歌迷, 但我也得承认自己并不是很清楚他的实力。没有凉平和龙一的庆太，会有怎么样的成绩呢？心里并没有期待，只有不安。听了他新歌的广播版，还算不错，但还是不确定。可能因为不知道他到底写了什么样的歌词，所以到现在我并不能体会他的心情，也不能确定他真正的实力。现在才真正体会到偶像和歌迷之间的距离，我们离真正的了解还差个十万八千里呢。又或许，我们根本从来就没有真正了解过，只是一味的认为自己很了解，但现实往往是会令人难以致信的。偶像与歌迷的关系就是这样，互相依赖但却一点也不密切，某种程度上也可说是虚幻不真实的。有点悲哀。

但我始终会继续支持下去。虽然并不时很能认同，但也不能否认，他们在5年来是我精神支柱之一。看着他们每一次那么努力，看着他们每一次发自内心真诚的微笑毫不做作，都会给我一种莫名的安慰。这似乎有些疯狂，会让人皱起眉头说这太over了，但这就是我的心情。

现在应该做的，就是把“橘庆太”这名字重新定位吧。
w-inds.不会从乐坛上消失，只是出现了另一个“橘庆太”而已。
以后的发展我并不敢肯定，但我始终会继续支持下去。
说不定这样的发展会比较好呢？
可能是我想太多了。

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Tachibana Keita
Debut Single- Michishirube
Out on 10/18
Limited edition includes bonus DVD with backstage footage
Ending theme of shonen anime "Katei Kyoshi Hitman REBORN!"

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