currently listening to: HUG [Dong Bang Shin Gi] -- gosh i can't get enough of this song~~
got back majority of my results. i don't really need to get all of them back to know how my result slip will finally look like for the prelims.
CHINESE A: C LIT: E ECONS: D HISTORY: A
GP: C5 AO MATH: A1
this is like the worst results i've got out of all the exams i had in tpjc. and i don't even know if i can secure that A for history. it will only be if i have at least a high B for the SEA paper. and my European paper... urgh. scored the lowest for that FR essay. so much for doing FR for two whole weeks.
and GP is major major disappointment. i'm beginning to think that i'm sort of pulling a02's GP record down. i might have contributed to the pass rate, but definitely not to our MSG. and gosh, this makes me feel so guilty lar. haiii~
and also for CLA. i kinda expected a B initially. but i guess it really makes a difference when you didn't really put in maximum effort for it. it shows.
then again. i had practically been doing econs for the entire revision period. and i end up with a D. -_______-
lit ar lit. one word. expected.
but it's okay. i know you guys don't like it when i complain about my results. and i'm over about thinking how crappy they are too. it is kinda too late to mull over it anyway. whatever i can do now, it will be whatever i can do in the A levels. and maybe a little more, but it won't make much of a difference.
yepp. it's okay, xinyi!!! you know you've done whatever you could. =)))
continue mugging ya? at least... don't let your past efforts go to complete waste.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Sunday, September 24, 2006
7:28 PM
tomorrow it begins.
currently listening to: Nothing [Too Dejected]
okay okay. prelims are over. 2 days of rest and relaxation. w-inds.-ing, dbsk-ing, walking around, binging, shopping... and splurging. *guilt* special thanks to michelle. heh. *pats mic on the back*
i've spent the past two days rather meaningfully i think. going to places and thinking alot to myself. so i think it's enough even though i didn't go all out to do anything crazy after the exams.
it's only the prelims anyway. i still have the A's to worry about.
so tomorrow we'll all go back to school. full of dread about our prelim results. feeling the disappointment and worry about the crap results. then going forward full gear for the 'intensive revision' period.
a02, we must all make it there okayy.
it's kinda scary how it's only one month away. no one knows how it'll be like but i guess it's a path that we all have to take. praying that we'll be able to give our best.
18 october is graduation. which means no more macey yep. well, at least i still have the memories. move on move on. there's nothing i can do. haii. life is as such.
don't think too much anymore.
so okay okay. let the mugging begin.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
6:01 PM
michishirube [道標]
currently listening to: Michishirube [Tachibana Keita]
...... i have to say that there wasn't a tinge of happiness with me when i heard that. no excitement, no anticipation, no smiles. i was so shocked, so disappointed, so damn angry. saw the clip and thought to myself: what the hell does he think he is doing?
i've always hated it when people tell me ryohei and ryuichi seemed to be doing nothing in w-inds. i've always hated it when people tell me that w-inds. can do without ryohei and ryuichi. i've always hated it when people tell me that keita can just go solo.
i've always said that keita won't be able to be that good without both of them singing and dancing along with him, that w-inds. won't be as good without both of them together with him. i've always said that the three of them will always go together.
and now his decision seems to undermine everything that i've stood for.
i was so crestfallen when i heard the news. i read forums that chide those who don't support him in this decision. i was thinking thinking and thinking to myself till 5am in the morning. but i still can't convince myself that i should be happy.
i'm not used to seeing his name without ryohei and ryuichi. i'm not used to seeing his face in the PV without ryohei and ryuichi. i'm not used to seeing him perform live without ryohei and ryuichi. i'm not used to thinking 'keita' without thinking 'ryohei' and 'ryuichi'.
... but it's not about whether i like it or not. he has chosen to go this way, the others have allowed him to do so. and even though i hate his decision, i have to go along with it.
... but suddenly tachibana keita doesn't seem to be like a familiar name to me anymore.
Tachibana Keita Debut Single- Michishirube Out on 10/18 Limited edition includes bonus DVD with backstage footage Ending theme of shonen anime "Katei Kyoshi Hitman REBORN!"
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Saturday, September 16, 2006
11:23 PM
i can only sigh and continue isn't it.
currently listening to: Begin [Dong Bang Shin Ki]
half more to go. i might not have won the battles, but at least this means that the war will be over soon.
it's 11.30pm, i've only managed to complete nationalism. i don't want to elaborate on how bad this is.
... am i really tired, or am i just tired of studying?
isolation has brought back all the brooding. which i realised is actually much needed.
off i go to ahma's after this drudgery's finally over.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Friday, September 08, 2006
5:22 PM
i'm beyond cure lah.
currently listening to: Heart, Mind & Soul [Dong Bang Shin Ki]
i'm really sad to say this, i really am but... i'm not anti-korean anymore. *bawls*
DONG BANG SHIN KI is really a fantastic group. i mean, i've seen them a hundred times when i was searching for w-inds. stuff. but i never really had the chance to hear them or know about them. or rather, i refused to hear or know about them since i was anti-korean. heh.
one week ago i was watching mtv rather 'guilt-lessly' at the expense of revision. their MV came on and i continued watching cuz i wanted to have more time to slack. ... then that was it man.
their vocals and dance were amazing lah! more of the vocals i must say. songs like Rising Sun, Heart Mind & Soul, Begin etc really awed me. yep, i fell in love with their songs. and the amount of feeling they put into them. you can really tell that they were really into it when they recorded the songs. and that makes me even more amazed and captivated by their vocals. i almost cried when i heard 'Beautiful Thing' lah! 'Holding Back the Tears' almost had that effect too. i can't believe this. okay maybe i'm too emo. but i've really never been that touched by a song before.
then began the search for videos and information. [haiz... i'm really gonna flunk my prelims.] their lives and acapellas were really amazing too. i mean, so far i've never seen a performance where they've gone out of tune before. i'm seriously impressed.
and it seems like they are a very close-knitted group as well. eh.. found lots of stuff about these, but it seems kinda weird to type them all out. all i can say is that, none of them will stay in DBSK if any one of the members goes.
the more amazing thing is... they are so young lah!!! even younger than w-inds. 1986 and 1988-- the youngest is 18. but they look so so so mature. and those don't sound like 20-year-old vocals to me. i guess it's really the environment. just look at our singaporean teens. *shakes head*
eh, personal favourite-- Hero Jaejoong. Xiah is very very good too. but Hero's voice is really... you can't say it's powerful but you can't say it's weak either. it has alot of erm... depth to it? it's really unique. you must listen to understand lah, seriously. and he's getting cuter and cuter too. maybe it's just me cuz i've been staring at his face whenever he sings.
gosh. i haven't really been able to study these days. once i hear them on the ipod, i get so captivated i can't really concentrate. when i try to abstain from the ipod, it's worse cuz i can't concentrate at all. and when i finally can't resist, i pull an all-nighter on youtube.
haiya... addiction lah. i'm so dead this time. and i have a feeling this won't be just a short-term obsession.
ah just to make it clear, w-inds. is still number one even though i'm really impressed by DBSK. to me, they are irreplacable.
the prelims is really out for me. i don't know what i'll be doing at the exams when i haven't even finished revising history, or started on literature, or cleared up my economics concepts. and there's only TWO DAYS LEFT.
it's my fault and mine alone. no determination to resist. sheesh. i get so engrossed sometimes i can't help myself. *praying for the craze to wear off soon*
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
2:42 AM
i really need to talk to myself...
currently listening to: Stay With Me Tonight [Dong Bang Shin Ki]
did i mention that i hate studying. as in really hate studying.
i thought i was motivated. but turns out that i'm not the least bit so. i don't even feel the sense of urgency, just that from time to time it creeps upon me to make my mind wander abit on how screwed up my studies actually are.
i can stare at the notes for one hour and not get anything in. i can hold on to the pen for 10 minutes without trying anything down. i can sit at the table for 5 straight hours without absorbing anything at all.
it's torture. i don't wanna complain but it's just frustrating. i feel like kicking myself.
sometimes i wonder. if i had never thought and acted that way in the past. will i even be bothered with studying now. i might still be just hanging around someplace else. or might not even be in a JC at all. so was that a good change or an unfortunate one? i didn't even get what i had started out to achieve.
i don't want to be so reliant on something anymore. the after-effects. takes more than just 1 year to get over. but really, when there's nothing you really want to aim for... it's hard to get it going.
okay i'm rambling off topic again. i can't blame everything on the past. it's just me. it's either i get a hold on myself again, or i just forsake my years of hardwork. that simple.
i think it's the 'i-can't-understand-what-i-am-studying-for' syndrome again.
記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。
Friday, September 01, 2006
1:46 AM
mug, people, mug!
currently listening to: Boogie Woogie 66 [w-inds.]
yesterday was the last day of our normal school routine. no more 4.10,4.10,2.10,2.50,2.10 anymore. it also means that there's no normal lessons anymore. which also probably also means that the whole class will rarely in in the same classroom again anymore. *sniff*
not that i'm particularly fond of the normal curriculum. but it does mean that a significant part of JC life's gone. 1 and 3/4 years in a flash. i can't even recall much. but there's still this sense of.... whoa. it's gonna be over soon. ... and it also means that macey will never appear in my life again.
it's kinda early to sink into nostalgia. there's still 60++ days of solid mugging to do. and a final hurdle to cross before we can finally stop and smell the roses.
i dunno what's this feeling. suddenly. i just really want us to be able to make it. the entire class of 05A02 to make it through and then rejoice over our accomplishment. yeah, i think i'd really like that to happen.
we've been trying so hard to mug, every single one of us. we should all be rejoicing in the end, playing chop chilli chop and doing the A-0-2 cheer. so let's mug hard, people?
