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currently listening to: Chu Dian [SHE]

i know i said i won't blog unless i'm cranky.
but right now i AM feeling super cranky.
i'm complaining. beware.

but bear with it.

i have a screwed up handphone that switches off itself after 5 seconds so i replaced it temporarily with another, which is prolly the most low-tech handphone i've ever seen cuz it doesn't have a collar id of sorts so i end up with tons of messages whom i cannot identify the senders, which is extremely irritating cuz it would be so impolite to ask who the toots the person is (even though i've done it lots of times already). and because the toot phone doesn't seem to have any phone memory of its own, i can't store any new contacts in it since the SIM card is full, so i ended up having to manually type out all the 200++ contacts that's in the phone memory of the screwed phone (outside SIM) which got me to around 2am this morning. and today i just had to send urgent msgs about literature to everybody in class BUT i don't have any of the contacts in the SIM card so i had to log on to the computer and scroll up and down for their contacts (lucky i keyed them in last night). worse still, the messaging system in the phone is toots lousy cuz firstly, you can't send in bulk so i have to keep forwarding the message every time i finish sending it to someone. secondly, you don't know who you are sending the message to unless you double check. thirdly, it is fond of typing in CAPS so i have to manually UN-CAP them but i didn't have the patience to do it properly so i ended up with a msg with lots of weird word forms like "hI thiS IS xiNYi--blah", which might look cool to some people but definitely not to me cuz i'm personally very much irritated by such word forms. this also means that i take 5 minutes just to reply to a simple question like "where is the lesson tmr." fourthly, there is a toot LIMIT to the outbox, and i'm only allowed to have max 10 msgs in the outbox so i have to manually delete all of them every time i finish sending a message to the entire class. fifthly, the inbox takes a loooong time to load, which is agonizing to a hasty person like me who might consider banging her head against the wall to spare herself from the torture of having to wait endlessly for a lousy phone to load a single message.

and some will ask why i didn't use the tpjc internal messaging system like i always do, which then gets me started on another complaint cuz my tpjc inbox is ALSO screwed. no matter how many times i log in or when i log in or how long before i log in again, the inbox always says "Can't Open File 'S8846myICnumber'", which means that i cannot receive or send any message at all and this is only happening to minority ME becuz my brother could still have access to his inbox. i tried to look all over for somewhere to report this fault but the only one i could find was the 'Fault Reporting' of computers in the school and none for common simple troubled students like me who are so unfortunately plagued with problems with our personal inboxs. i can't even find a way to message the technical experts in school. so this prolly means that i would have to make a trip down either to the 'computer office' (or whatever you call it) or the general office, which equates to even more time wasted of the 92 days left to the A levels.

and this gets me to my even bigger complaint about schoolwork. the number of assignments that are piling of is impossible. and the number of tests lined up is EVEN MORE impossible. my saturdays are all gone. this, however, is a common problem faced by every single JC2 student right now so it isn't really something to keep harping on about. maybe i should add that i will be going to school EVERY SINGLE DAY during the PRELIMS cuz i have at least 1 paper on every stupid day of the prelims. more infuriatingly i just realised that i lost my PC worksheet that has been giving me problems since the literature timed test last saturday. there are 2 worksheet- A and B. i brought A on saturday but she wanted to do B. i brought B on tuesday and even rushed the gothic outline for the lesson but she wanted to do A. now she wants to do A tomorrow again and i realised that amidst all the flurry i have LOST THAT TOOT WORKSHEET despite frantically ransacking the shelves for it. WHAT. i should have just lugged my entire shelf with me for every single lesson it seems. lesson to be learnt here as well: NEVER try to predict literature teachers. especially TPJC lit teachers. yours truly is telling you that you will only make trouble for yourself and your class if you try to act smart and guess their moves cuz they'll always be fickle-minded and change their agenda for the lesson anytime they want then leaving you feeling like a sinner cuz you have told the class the wrong information for the lesson.

the BIGGEST problem is that i have a Silas Marner test tomorrow which i have not finished studying for. the 'walking-around-in-bugis-till-6pm' today didn't exactly contribute to my understanding of the text, especially when i only got home at around 7.30pm cuz of the ridiculously long wait for the bus, and then busy myself with contacting the entire class about literature class and then answering their questions one by one with that stupid useless hopelessly-outdated handphone of mine. ranting nonstop right now is also diminishing my time for study, but it's 11am now and i'm too cranky to ever get down to any studying.

so this means that i shall be flunking anotherthe literature test tomorrow.

god saaaaave me. i think i shall be malfunctioning very soon.

and strangely you don't seem to make it better anymore.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。