you make me smile without knowing it.

currently listening to: One Word [Lee Junki]

i was thinking.

there is only this much time left.
why am i trying to ignore and walk away from?

one month and fourteen days.

i have like another 130++ days left.
and after that i won't be seeing macey ever again.
i'm not even able to deliberately forget his presence then because he won't be there anymore.

so what's wrong with being a little bimbotic?
what's wrong with being a little distraught?
what's wrong with being a little infatuated?
what's wrong with being a little happier?

i thought i was losing myself when i do stuff like this.
i didn't like it because it was so outrightly bimbotic.
but there's not much time left so...
can't i just create more fond memories of this?
this happens like only once in a blue moon.
i get to do this for only another 4 months.
... then i'll never see him again.

and it's been 6 years since we last met.
it was so unbelievable coincidental that we ended up in the same school again.
i guess i should really make more out of this.

i don't care how it turns out.
i don't care that he doesn't even know i'm there.
i just want to be able to remember more of him.

gosh here it goes again.
bimbo post. urgh.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。