*SIGH*

currently listening to: Shen Xin Bu Yi [Tanya Chua]

the typical life of an average JC student:

mug+crush+homework+complaints+ponlessons+exams+headaches.

do you see any sophistication in these.
do you see any vivacity in these.
do you even see anything in these.

i am discontented.

a few days ago i told my fellow mentor that my definition of success in life was to be contented and satisfied with life itself at last.

note the 'at last'.

then later i asked myself:
... am i asking for too much?

i believe that it's easy to be contented.
i totally agree that it's a state of the mind.
but there are different degrees of contentment, influenced by the type of environment and company that one resides in.

bottom line.

if the stuff around you irks you, there is no contentment in sight.
forget about the state of mind.
it's mental self-torture.

for the student:
if school life irritates you, you can only bear with it.
you're not suppose to be contented.
... yet. maybe.

i'm still a little hopeful for success.

but for now i can't help thinking that life's really tough.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。