really rather dissapointed.

currently listening to: Shen Xin Bu Yi [Tanya Chua]

today, or yesterday, was the THC AC Day.
aka Senior-Mentors-Graduate-Finally Day.





i'm suppose to be very happy right?
i thought that today would be a wonderful day.
cuz i'll never be bugged by thc ever again.
but i never expected to feel so cheated today.
my mentees never came when they said they would.

my trust in them has been completely broken.
i hunted around for gifts to thank them.
i waited for them at the mrt station for so long.
then i had to call before i found out that they were not coming.
i never never never expected that they would pangseh me.
especially when we were suppose to give a speech together.

when i heard the news i broke down almost immediately.
wanfung had to run to buy tissue and water for me to 'wash-up'.
and threw in lots of lame comments to make me feel better.
i was still a little affected all throughout the ceremony though.
but thanks lots still cuz it would have been much worse if i had been all alone then.

so what if i've got the cert of distinction?
so what if i've got the outstanding mentor-coordinator award?
i am not a good mentor despite the effort.
today proves it all.

moving on to happier stuff,
today was also Li's 18th Birthday Celebration!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIPING!!!
[IN ADVANCE]

had dinner at billy bombers heerens.
it's always so nice to meet up with old friends.
they can just make you joke and laugh despite how low you are actually feeling.

anyway.
i really shouldn't care anymore.
i'm outta thc, outta mentoring, outta all these stuff.
even though thc still had to make me cry in the end, it's all over.
i'm suppose to be very happy okayy.

now let's see if i can get back to mugging.
i've been so off-track recently.
i just can't settle down to work on the stuff once and for all.
gosh this is really very baaad.
i'm worried. BBCEA1C5 is not seriously not good.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。