daite daite daite senorita~
tsuyouku tsuyouku tsuyouku hanasanaide~

currently listening to: Daite Senorita [Yamashita Tomohisa]

this song is starting to get into me.

i've been pangseh-ed again.
sheesh. i shouldn't care anymore lar.

so.

i'm rotting at home and stuffing myself with food while trying to mug and watch tv and surf the net at the same time then end up panicking at the end of the day because nothing much has been absorbed and i am still at the same thing after staring at it for 2 whole hours.

nothing has been done.
literally nothing.
i only managed to produce two pages of crap.
and i'm not thinking at all.
i'm not using my brains at all.
cuz i keep wanting to do something else.

HAIII. *long sigh*

i realised that my house is very distracting.
i should just get myself out of the house and start mugging somewhere else.

maybe macdonald's. but i'll surely stuff myself with fries.
maybe starbucks. but i don't drink coffee. or tea.
maybe the library. but i think i'll end up reading novels.
maybe someone else's house. but i'll end up fooling around.
maybe kinokuniya. but i have to spend a bomb on the food.
maybe at my mum's office. but i think i'll get in their way.
maybe the school library. but i'm sure thousands of tpjcians will fill it up.

WHERE?!?!?!?!
WHERE TO STUDY?!?!?!?!
WHERE FOR CONDUCIVE STUDYING?!?!?!?

i think.

it's all just my mentality.
i mean, one can study anywhere as long as one is determined to.
at least i know that's for my case definitely.

which means i have no determination for studies larr.

still i seriously think i have to try studying elsewhere.
... but where???

i wanna cry~ i wanna cry~ lalalalala~~

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。