yakyakyak... i need the toilet.

currently listening to: Special Happiness [KAT-TUN]

today i stupidly shared a bun with my mother.
my mother who had gastric flu.
the gastric flu which is contagious especially through saliva.
so....

i feel like vomitting right now.

this aching feeling won't go away.
heard that apples will help so i'm gorging myself with apples right now.
erm.. hope i won't throw them up like what i did with the grapes.

moving on, i've arranged my schedule for the holidays.
it really looks like i'm gonna have less time for staring at the clouds.
for one, the interact camp.
i just realised that deborah and me are the only j2 non-excos going!!

*horrified*
*imagines deborah's reaction*
*horrified again*

okayy.
so right now i'm trying to find a way to tell them that we might wanna back out.
but i agreed to help Sandar with the thingy on IU night.
so this means i have to turn up at least for the IU night.

argh.

my handphone finally decided to go totally haywire today.
it has been acting strange since i lost its antenna at the parliament house.
i think it has been struggling hard for the past week.
poor thing. it finally screwed up today.

so now i have a antenna-less handphone that says "Emergency Only".
which means that i can only receive or call or message when there's an emergency (which i have no idea how they define it).
i haven't been able to call or message anyone, or receive anything from anyone.
so tell me again how i'm gonna coordinate my schedules.
*despair*

i gotta get a new handphone fast.

umm... i think i just remembered something.
the choir concert is on wednesday right?!?!?!
O.O

great. more stuff to do.
oh ya! there's a history test on nationalism on tuesday!!
grrr. more work.

okay i think that i might not be having much fun during the holidays after all.
oh well, it's my A level year anyway.
i'm suppose to sacrifice everything isn't it.
oh which includes my birthday, because i have a Gothic paper on 23rd nov.
this means that i will be mugging Gothic (the most detested) on my birthday.
since even my birthday's gonna be sacrificed, i guess the june holidays is expected to be in the package.

HAIII. *long sigh*
it's a tough year.

oh and do you know that it's not safe to keep a public blog anymore?
you may get plagiarised, publicized, insulted and blah.
then forced to close down your blog.
so i think it really helps when you have a low profile like me.
at least people won't be that interested in your life or your views, especially when you don't have outstanding literary blogging talent or controversial views.

but sometimes it's still very dangerous to just blog out all your feelings here cuz the whole world will know what you are really like and strangers will start giving you the "oh it's her!" kind of face when you see them in school the next day.

the flaws that comes with technology.
privacy is no longer what it was.

i mean, sure there's always the private blog option.
but that would make blogging kind of worthless.
cuz blogging is one way to express your views.
and when you do that you need people to listen (or read).
and sometimes you might need some other people to listen to you besides your close friends.
keeping everything to yourself is not good for the body either.
so blogging provides us with the best way of expressing oneself publicly cuz you don't feel as awkward as you would when you do it face-to-face.

yeah some may think it's an act of cowardice.
but that's better than not doing anything about it at all.

okayy why am i suddenly into this topic.
made this entire entry so long.

i'm off i'm off.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。