____frustration*


currently listening to: 太聪明 [陈绮贞]

okay i am not doing well in school.


i'm scoring *toot* marks for my tests and assignnments.
i'm kinda distracted in class due to certain events that happened recently.
i'm hating the distance yet i'm trying to sustain it for reasons that even i can't understand.
i'm stepping on everyone's toes because my long-lost temper is catching up with me again.
i'm finding it hard to control my emotions, and anger is only one of the many.
i'm talking crap without even knowing it.
i'm developing this nagging feeling that the people around me aren't exactly friendly.


WHAT is happening man.
it's not only schoolwork and results that bug me.
everything just seems wrong.


sometimes i think that my thoughts are so trivial. so superficial. so insignificant.
....okay i think this is truth.


...where am i.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

12:57 AM

i hate the distance

currently listening to: 太聪明 [陈绮贞]

我总以为你一般难懂的我
在你了解了以后
其实也没什么
我总是忽冷又忽热
隐藏我的感受
只是怕爱你的心被你看透

猜的没错想得太多
不会有结果
被你看穿了以后
我更无处可躲
我开始后悔不应该太聪明的卖弄
只是怕亲手将我的真心葬送

我猜中你的心
遥远的距离都是因为太过聪明
我猜中你的心
要再一次决定
缓慢的思绪都是因为太想靠近你


希望遥远的距离只是因为太过想你


okay i've said this a hundred times but i think i'm getting bimbotic and i hate it.
extricate extricate!!!

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Sunday, March 26, 2006

4:33 PM

okay...

currently listening to: Because We Believe [Andrea Bocelli]

this is rather sad.

we are of two very different frequencies.
and i hate math.
=(

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Saturday, March 18, 2006

11:54 PM

sorting out my thoughts.

currently listening to: Because We Believe [Andrea Bocelli]

okay this is gonna be a LONG and messy entry.
cuz my thoughts comes in parts.
totally random. out of the blue. lots of question marks.
maybe that explains why i'm so prone to day-dreaming.

umm.. yeah we had our OG bbq at last on friday.
although the majority were J2s, i still thought it was pretty decent.
at least it's the only bbq i got to eat so much and chat around in peace instead of getting smoke on my face the entire time.
*nods head*
oh and emu makes nice roasted marshmallows!
but mine gets burnt all the time.

thinking about the past week.
the holidays gonna be over in 24 hours ++.
what exactly have i done?
tried to squeeze all my outings into a single day, but somehow ended up going out everyday.
i wonder how it happened.
maybe i should bury my handphone and dismantle my computer whenever the holidays are here.

monday:
was trying to study econs but got dragged out by my mother to SGH and KSC. okay maybe not 'dragged' but i was feeling guilty about not accompanying her to SGH so i gave in.

tuesday:
had lit in the morning. long talk with mr reynolds about dropping literature. played badminton with michelle, juliana and hazel. tried to study literature but only managed to complete the poe pre-tutorials.

wednesday:
woke up late so couldn't study CLA in the morning. went over the jiepi's house to watch sex and the city along with xinwei and judy. exposed to some really explicit scenes. really, this week seems to be full of explicit scenes somehow. went to TM to zap the silas marner notes we'd borrowed from jiepi's sister. visited hazel at the yan su ji stall at CS. walked around. so i only managed to read the shining on the way. so much for cla.

thursday:
study camp with regina, juliana and li. woke up late so couldn't study math in the morning (again. i know i know.). li came over at 3 and reg and jul at 5+. so much for meeting at 2pm+ *stares*. was trying to study math and i did the DRV tutorials again for revision. but the rest of the time the 4 of us were talking about the tpjc-mjc rivalry thingy and watchinglistening to mtv. jul and reg stayed over, and we popped over to caltex for foodstuff at night. we studied till from 11+pm to 3am. 11~12am was prolly the period we absorbed the most. after that it was mainly complaints of "gosh i'm falling asleep", "ARGH i so tired!", "i wanna eat." and "let's sleep can?".

friday:
jul and reg still in the house. we sat in front of the computer from 10am to 2pm 'kop'-ing songs from one another's music devices and doing lots of personality tests. they left for reg's house to study again and i went back home to get ready for the bbq. tried to fly a kite at the beach but failed cuz the *toot* kite prefers to fly around in circles and 5 cm above the ground. then it was bbq time~ ate and talked and laughed and played cards. hairianto sent jingfang and me home by taxi. thanks lots!

saturday:
which is today. tried to study history in the morning but somehow i ended up reading the newspapers first and i'd barely got past one chapter of SEA history and i got dragged out by my mother again. this time to get the army supplies with my brother and to eat at marche. as usual i devoured one plate and a half of rosti, along with the other usual dishes. hung around in HMV to wait for my mother (who was at robinsons). something came over me and i bought WaT and K's latest CDs. i saw w-inds. THANKS album too!!!! i am so so so surprise they have it in singapore already. the last time i had waited for ageha for one whole month and i got it at MJ... erms. anyway i had an incredible urge to buy it... BUT! not knowing that it would be in singapore already, i'd asked wanfung and ruiran to buy it for me since they are in hong kong right now. so i have to wait. *sobx*

so here i am, back since 9pm, sitting in front of the computer, blogging and downloading Boa's OUTGROW album. in short-- i gave up on history.

i guess tomorrow's flow of events would be pretty much similar to these, except that i'll be having tuition.

what have i been doing?
this is strange.
i've been touching books the whole week but nothing's gone into my head.
i'm so tired of studying already.
i'm losing interest for studying.
like today i tried to get SEA history into my head but i stared at the notes for 2 hours and all the while my mind was elsewhere.

i think this is what you get when you've been trying so hard for so many years.
you just feel tired and you don't wanna go on anymore.
cuz everything seems to be off tangent in the end and you never get what you want.
like everyone else, you try to work hard for your goals.
but in a hidden part of your mind you know that your dreams won't ever come true.
cuz it never did. not once.
so subconsciously you have already given up.
but still you are trying to work hard because that's what everyone else is doing.

i guess that's why i get irritated when people ask me about homework.
not VERY irritated or annoyed lah.
it's just like a sudden "......" thought that flashes through my head.
it reminds me of studies when i've been trying and trying yet things always happen to foil it up.
it makes me feel angry at myself, especially when people call to ask about homework that i have not done.
it sort of makes me feel insulted too cuz people will be thinking or saying, "what? you haven't done it yet?", and it's sounds like i've been slacking the entire time when in truth i've been trying hard as well.

*sigh*
i dunno.

oh and about dropping literature.
my reynolds talked to me on tuesday.
i told him about my stagnating results and i forgot what he said.
but i remember him saying that i should look at the A level results in general.
cuz lit grades have traditionally been poor in school exams or assignments.
so should i or should i not drop?

i have a feeling that the teachers are rolling their eyes already cuz i seem to be dragging my feet.
since it's already this time of the year and i'm still worrying about dropping or not.
i think like that too, so i'm not particularly unhappy about it or anything.
but really, should i or should i not?

i took up literature because i thought that it was something an arts student should have.
i mean, when i got the subject combination form in acjc, literature was included in every single arts combination so i guess the idea just went into my head.
and of course to some extent i do really feel that arts is all about literature, whether one is given a choice or not.
but when i realised that this isn't necessarily true, i thought to myself: i'm gonna drop it sooner or later.
and so the thought went on... and on... and on.
but no action was ever taken.

in truth, literature seems to be like a burden to me.
i think that's why i'm always having lit assignments to clear because i'm always putting them off to the very last item on my homework list.
the first few books-- The Monk, Jekyll and Hyde, Silas Marner and maybe also Country Wife have been like a torture to me.
especially The Monk and J&H.
i just don't like gothic i guess.
i don't like the way it reflects all the ugly sides of life.
it makes me feel "too much into reality", getting in contact with these aspects of humanity.
and i don't like facing these negative aspects of life.
i don't know why either but it's just me.
i guess it has something to do with my dislike towards growing up.

but in any case in literature i am still exposed to them.
somehow i think i'm getting more receptive.
after reading The Shining, i think i am getting more receptive to some extent, though i do get the urge to fling the book away when i get to the scary parts.

and also, the books are getting interesting too.
like Othello and Country Wife and The Shining.
somehow i feel that i am able to do literature again with these books.
PC has always interest me as well.
but then there is something about the stagnant results.

i can understand that lit results have traditionally bad.
but should it at least increase a little?
after the effort (erm. yeah i would say there is still some effort.) put in?
why must it always hover at the 24~27 mark?
and i think i only got two 27s and one 28 in my entire literature life in jc.
the rest are all....

if i'm not confident of getting decent grades for literature, should i still hold on to it?

and then there is the interest problem.
actually, regardless of whatever i say in school, literature has always seem to be an interesting subject to me.
maybe it wasn't a VERY STRONG interest, but nonetheless i know i do have an interest.
but in jc, it's suddenly warped.
i think it has something to do with the boring lessons (i'm sorry) and texts.
then literature work is starting to pile as well.
it becomes a burden to me and no longer an interest like it once was.

but like i said, the holidays have sort of given me a 'break' from this.
reading The Shining over the holidays have been a pleasure despite the scary parts in it.
just like how reading Othello was a pleasure during the december holidays.
maybe it's the nature of the book... i dunno.
but the point is that suddenly i feel that literature is interesting again.

so should i still drop it?

it like a 'vicious cycle of thoughts' sorta thing:

stage 1- lit bores me and sucks the life out of me in school.
stage 2- lit results makes it even more of a torture for me.
stage 3- suddenly interest for lit revives (eg. during the hols) and i feel like i can do it.
stage 4- but thought about stagnant lit results makes me depressed again.
stage 5- start to feel that lit is a burden.
stage 6- repeat the process from stage 1.

argh.
i'm still caught.

lit is about...
themes, skills, comparisons, analysis. i think.
i like the themes and and analysis part.
but skills?
skills like analysing the use of language, the use of parallels etc etc.
i don't think i will EVER be able to get them right.
it will mean putting in alot alot alot more effort into lit.
it would be at the huge huge expense of my other homework.
because i don't think i have the basics.
like.. what exactly is language?
what are the stuff you have to look at to talk about language?
these are basics that i don't have, and i kind of think it's because i don't have a literature background.

okay suddenly i'm blabbering and i dunno what i'm talking about.
literature... to drop or not to drop?
i can't believe i'm having so much problem with this problem.
it's like a constant thought that takes away my motivation for studying literature... or any other subject.
can i get this over and done with, and finally concentrate on studying??

*shakes head*
the problem with 4-subbers.
they have too much on their minds.

... i know i have to come to a decision fast..

then there's the problem about being sick of studying.
oh come to think of it.
since i know i'm not gonna do fantastic anyway, taking lit and goofing it up won't hurt will it?

........

in any case, i can not do fantastic for the A levels, but i definitely CANNOT goof up my A levels and get all Cs or Ds or something worse.
but this is what i will get if i continue like what i am doing now.
i'm gonna flunk my A levels so badly that i won't be able to crawl up again and get out of depression even if my parents sent me overseas for a second attempt.
i may not even want to go overseas since i've always thought it was an act of escaping from reality and i don't want that.
... and then i'll end up rotting at home and getting into a course that will make me jump off a building a few lessons later.

okays.
i know i've got an overactive imagination.
but you can't deny that something like this might just happen.

man, i really really gotta get back on track.

first i gotta make that decision about literature.
then i have to come to terms with studying and not be so sick of it anymore.
then i have to find a way for effective studying.
then i gotta try to sustain whatever i'm doing until the A levels are over.
and regardless of aptitude and goals, i'll be getting whatever fate gives me in the end.

......
okay whatever you read in the above paragraph jsut summarized this entire entry.



but they are easier said than done.
sigh.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

12:30 AM

i guess this is it.

currently listening to: BALANCE [w-inds.]




- lights out -

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Sunday, March 12, 2006

11:50 PM

recollections

currently listening to: 蟬時雨 [w-inds.]

was thinking during tuition just now.
it just came randomly, i've no idea why.

there was once i asked for his address, and he gave me a street name.
being the stupid pri 2 kid that i was then, i went: huh?
cuz i was expecting something like 'tampines' or 'bedok' or 'simei' etc.
i didn't even know that street names existed actually. hahaha.
that was how gullible i was.
and that encounter was when i learnt about the existence of street names.
i remembered that he was trying to explain to me about the difference between districts and streets.
but i just couldn't understand what he said. hahaha.
so i started to look around in the car and noticed lots of road names and stuff.
only then did i go "orrhh..".

and then there was another time when he brought a mechanical shaker to school.
i was like: ooo.. what's this? can shake one leh!!
okayy again the gullible pri 2 kid like me didn't know that shakers existed then.
i was thinking that it was a 'really cool mechanical pencil that can be shaked'.
erms. ya. heh.
then he showed me how it worked, but i think he refused to lend it to me. haha.
so a few days later i bought one of my own!!!
from the school bookshop. heh.
the same brand and type.
but i think his was yellow or blue and mine was red.

oh and there was this time when Ms Jenifer Yeo actually said we're the quietest couple in class!!
'couple' not as in the boy-girl relationship.
it's just because we were desk partners sitting together.
now that i think of it: how can it be possible??
i don't remember keeping my mouth shut during those days. haha.
but i did recall that i always act guai during Ms Yeo's lessons.
she even said that i'm such a sweet girl and she can't believe i have a brother who's a pain in the neck. *wahahhaa*
yeah but anyways that remark wouldn't have been made if he wasn't my partner.
if it was Renyou or somebody of the likes we would have been branded the noisest partners in the entire century. heh.
but yeah, point is that Ms Yeo said that we were the ROLE MODELS of the class.
*rofl*

hmm... there was once he told me something about me looking like his friend.
said something about my specs (yeah the obiang pri school type) and how i looked exactly like her.
i think that was when i asked him about his best friend and he told me about macey.
=X

i recall that we were transferred from the last row to the second last row.
one day he became quieter than usual and went about working and working on the assignments.
i recall i was rather scared that day. i wonder why. hahas.
plus he was a little sick that day too i think.
cuz he was sniffing and sniffing away.
at the end of the day he gave me all his assignments.
i was rather freaked out cuz i thought that for once he is allowing me to copy his homework officially.
but it turned out that he wanted me to hand it in for him because his grandmother had passed away and he wouldn't be in school the next day.
ehh... i forgot what my reaction was.
but i know that that incident really strengthened the impression he had in me.
yep.

oh and there was this period when i kept bugging him to sign my autograph book.
you know those kind where people write their particulars and poems and stuff.
but he refused to do it!!!
hmphh. what's his problem man.
couldn't get anything from him despite being classmates for 2 whole years.
but yeah, there he was cool and collected about the whole issue.
i seriously think that he was wayyy too matured for his age then.
his actions and speech say it all. haha.

yep. memories.
the first day he came to school...
since he was a transfer student, i only got to know him in pri 2.
i remember he went to the wrong class initially. haha.
i recall images of him being led down to corridor by mrs khoo.
then he was sitted there, and somehow i ended up sitting there too.
dragging my bright pink sailormoon bag and mickey mouse water bottle. haha.
and then it all started...

i wonder why.
heh.
i never expected to see him again after all these years.
i didn't think our paths would ever cross at all.
instead i was busying my thoughts with some other diversion (which somehow lasted for 6 years).
i wonder if it was then..

but now that we're seeing each other almost everyday.
we don't speak to each other at all.
i can't even look at him properly in the eye.
what has time done to us.
*shakes head*

there's the distance.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

6:37 PM

I AM SAD. VERY SAD.

currently listening to: 蟬時雨 [w-inds.]

okay after searching high and low for more information.
i found out that that piece of news is from a rather unreliable tabloid.
*50% of worries dissipated*
but there is still chance that it might be true...

please please don't let it be true.
i can't bear to not see them together.
w-inds. are keita ryohei and ryuichi!!!

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

4:35 PM

I AM SAD. VERY SAD.

currently listening to: 蟬時雨 [w-inds.]

遭 KAT-TUN 狙 擊 　 演 唱 會 滯 銷
w-inds 被 迫 拆 夥


日 本 三 人 偶 像 組 合 w-inds ， 向 來 深 受 亞 洲 多 個 地 區 的 少 女 歡 迎 ， 但 昨 日 日 本 有 爆 料 網 站 指 w-inds 將 於 今 年 內 解 散 ， 其 主 要 原 因 除 了 是 演 唱 會 門 券 滯 銷 外 ， 他 們 亦 被 尊 尼 事 務 所 今 年 最 強 武 器 KAT-TUN 連 環 攻 擊 ， 令 w-inds 被 迫 急 流 勇 退 及 拆 夥 。


取 消 大 阪 演 唱 會 日 場:

w-inds 今 年 的 巡 迴 個 唱 將 於 本 月 二 十 一 日 札 幌 開 鑼 ， 但 舉 辦 單 位 日 前 宣 布 原 定 下 月 六 日 中 午 ， 於 大 阪 舉 行 的 一 場 ， 因 考 慮 到 不 少 fans 要 參 加 開 學 禮 或 入 職 典 禮 而 未 能 入 場 ， 因 此 決 定 取 消 演 唱 會 ， 觀 眾 可 憑 取 消 場 次 的 門 票 看 同 日 晚 上 或 七 日 晚 上 的 演 唱 會 。 有 fans 透 露 ： 「 大 會 取 消 一 場 w-inds 的 大 阪 演 唱 會 ， 是 因 為 門 券 滯 銷 ， 找 藉 口 減 場 。 」



外 界 早 有 傳 w-inds 被 尊 尼 事 務 所 苦 苦 相 迫 ， 不 但 禁 止 他 們 出 演 音 樂 節 目 ， 他 們 在 下 周 三 推 出 大 碟 《 THANKS 》 後 翌 日 ， 事 務 所 安 排 六 人 組 合 KAT-TUN ， 於 該 日 推 出 處 男 細 碟 、 大 碟 及 最 新 DVD ， 實 行 強 搶 w-inds 的 fans 。 除 此 之 外 ， w-inds 今 次 大 碟 的 名 稱 《 THANKS 》 ， 亦 看 似 有 意 為 解 散 埋 下 伏 筆 ， 感 謝 fans 多 年 來 的 支 持 。 有 指 w-inds 解 散 後 ， 千 葉 涼 平 將 以 個 人 姿 態 出 碟 。

另 外 ， KAT-TUN 成 員 龜 梨 和 也 ， 上 月 中 被 雜 誌 刊 登 了 一 張 懷 疑 未 成 年 飲 酒 的 相 片 。 演 藝 界 前 輩 級 和 田 秋 子 前 日 在 節 目 內 表 示 ， 上 月 底 與 剛 滿 二 十 歲 的 龜 梨 到 燒 肉 店 名 正 言 順 飲 酒 。 對 於 他 的 酒 量 ， 和 田 說 ： 「 真 是 非 常 驚 人 。 」

.............................

我不要 !!!

我绝对 绝对 绝对 绝对 不要 !!!
我会一直一直支持 w-inds. 直到我死掉!!!!
*cries*

damn KAT-TUN!!!
damn Johnny!!!
*slaps myself for diverting*

they are actually saying that w-inds. is disbanding because their popularity's declining and much of this to due to their fans flocking over to Johnny H Kitagawa's KAT-TUN side.

我不要啦!!!

i'll cry myself to death if it happens.

please please please don't..

-state of depression-

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

10:20 PM

feeling weird.

currently listening to: Forgiveness [Ayumi Hamasaki]

*silence*
i can't imagine what it is like for them right now.
especially after today.

i think the toilet cleaner of a principal is so *toots* insensitive.
what happened to the humanity that was always present in haising?
at least we would always ANNOUNCE and then MOURN for a minute.
now it's like... nothing has ever happened.
instead she was yelling at us about our attire and how 'we-should-all-remove-the-drawstrings-from-our-shirts'.
can you imagine how to people close to him would feel?
i can accept when you tell me that 'the world still moves' and stuff liddat.
but i can't accept when you don't say anything AT ALL.
even if they don't mind.

loser. i'm angry.

no wonder tpjc will always just be tpjc.
don't tell me there's no link.
think about it.
there IS.

but let's not get explicit lest i get dragged to the GO tomorrow.

... just feeling rather weird.
can't imagine it happening to me.
PRAY don't let it happen to anyone near me.
PLEASE.

... this is a weird weird feeling.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Friday, March 03, 2006

9:09 PM

GP..... i'm a goner.

currently listening to: Nothing [yep.]


NOOOOOOOO.

i thought that my life would be perfect if i could be at the same place at the same time with him.

but wayyy am i wrong.
*waves goodbye to GP paper*

i can't make it lar.
it's so distracting!

i spent the first 15 minutes writing then erasing then writing then erasing.
and anyone can guess that nothing from the passage went into my head.
i didn't manage to finish my AQ!
then the Q&A questions were... let's just say i gave crap answers.
i didn't know what i was thinking.
couldn't concentrate AT ALL.

praying that we won't end up in the same examination hall for the A Levels.
LUCKY i didn't go to the science stream.
otherwise i don't know how i'm gonna survive JC by failing my tests all the time.

BUT!
even though i'm confirm guarantee plus chop gonna fail my GP paper this time,
it doesn't mean that i'm not happy.
... cuz at least that was one unforgettable experience.
=))

happiness comes with a high price.

... farewell, my GP Paper.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

8:25 PM

random.

currently listening to: The Computer Making Funny Noises [At Home]


05A02 got our class T-shirt today!
heard that my name was printed wrongly and they had to wait for the Auntie to scrape and edit my name on every single shirt before they could finally collect it.
so that explains why i was sneezing like some madwoman yesterday evening.

so sorry people!!!
thanks for waiting =)
*feels a little guilty*

we've got a nice class-T too.
heh.

oh!!
and the JC1s got their posting results today.
i know for sure jinghuangshicuo and emu will still be in tpjc.
but jonathan got posted to srjc!!
APPEAL!!!!!!!!!!!

wonder where the rest of my beloved ogms got posted to...

---------------------------------------

PS.
xinwei!!
gogogo!!!
we'll be behind you all the way!!
glad that finally things are starting to get better =))
*takes kq voodoo doll and starts sticking pins into it*

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。

Thursday, March 02, 2006

7:15 PM

okayy. it's the usual schoolwork paranoia again.

currently listening to: Nothing [yep.]

note: pardon the language.

crap.
i just slacked all the way the moment i got back home.

I NEED TO START STUDYING.
look at the crap A-level results tpjc's got.
*shakes head*

what am i still doing here.

i gotta start now lar.
i just know it.
it's probably a little late in the year even if i start now too.

i can't understand.

why is it that i always have to lie down on the sofa, grab a few pieces of bakua, switch on the telly and end up sitting there for 2 hours everyday when i get home from school?

why is it that my marks are at 'a state of rest' despite my efforts in trying to refine and improve essay after essay? i keep getting the same mark for history and literature and GP. not that they are bad, but it's just that they are not good. this is only gonna get me a C if it continues!!

why is it that i have no idea how to go about doing my work and revising? there is just so much homework everyday and before i can clear them, more comes piling in. what happened to the time for revision? am i really that slow on completing my assignments? 1 history outline and 1 chinese paper and it's 1am in the morning already. ...this is bad. really bad.

why is it that this stupid THC thingy is always taking up so much of my time when i'm suppose to be just a mentor-coordinator? i mean, look at the RJ and VJ MCs! they don't look as harrassed by MC duties as i am. it's either that they are supermen or it's just that i am overly-sensitive. why don't i just let mentoring rot in one corner since despite trying my best to engage and coordinate with the mentors and mentees for mentoring, I STILL GET THE SCOLDING AND THE COLD TREATMENT IN THE END. might as well not do anything and still get the scolding. i'm feeling completely unjustified. there goes my effort. there goes the reputation of tpjc mentors that i've tried hard to maintain. there goes the nice remarks in my resume (right now, i can't care less about anything other than this since these people are not giving a damn about 'reputations' anyway).

but one more month.
JUST ONE MORE MONTH.
and i'll be OUT OF THC FOREVER!!!!!
WOOHOOO!!!!

*jumps around*

i'm just dreading and dreading the THC exco meeting this sunday.
since they just scolded us two days ago, i don't expect it to be a nice session of updating and coming up with suggestions anymore.
argh.

why the stupid toots did i choose the THC scheme.

anyways.
condolences to those tpjc seniors who didn't do well.
the world keeps moving.
you gotta move on.
even if it means skipping university or repeating your 'A's privately.

yep.
i just hope i can say this to myself when it's my turn next year.

okay.
i'm worried.
I NEED TO STUDY.

as if that's not a point already made.
sheesh.
i am long-winded.

but!
nonetheless...
something nice happened today.
=)

you can always make me smile.
even if you don't know it.
in fact you are the only one who can.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。