drained

currently listening to: Nothing [Feeling Depressed]

the class got a rather harsh scolding from mr dan today.
didn't know what to think after that.
didn't say much during the class discussion.
cuz it's not like me to... whatever.

the class was not exactly very angry about the scolding.
which made me quite surprised because i thought we were all so agitated when we talked about the 10 rounds thingy.
but in fact, there was an element of guilt somewhere.
though still some complaints here and there of course
(c'mon, we ARE young ppl).
i guess everyone started to think alot after the scolding.

sometimes i really feel like shaking my head.
but i can't find the guts to do it.

i feel guilty to some extent too.
about lots of stuff.
but especially towards mr gay.
=(

it will be damn awkward from now on lah.
for sure.

okay anyways i went for the NTU School of Information and Communications Talk today.
rather demoralised by it, since it is now confirmed that it's super hard to get into SCI.
and i haven't really thought of what else i'd like to do other than SCI.
Business? but even that is tough.
everywhere and anywhere you go, it's always tough for our year.

stupid dragons.

to first qualify for the interview, you have to shine in your academics.
out of 1000++ applicants, you have to have good grades to be selected as one of the 500 interviewees.
after which they chuck off 300 base on your performance durnig the interview.

tell me.
how hard is this?
it's SUPER HARD.

getting good grades is hard enough.
though i have to admit it's still achievable.
then SHINING out of the 1000++ applicants is difficult since prolly everyone will be having good grades.
what's EVEN MORE TOUGH is the interview.
it is that that makes you, or breaks you.

tell me howoo~
how to get in like that.
*sigh*

so i didn't feel like going out anymore after the talk.
even though huichun still pangseh me in the end.
hmph.
shall get my supplies some other day.

*sigh*
SCI.
i guess i'd better keep a lookout for other courses.


- depressed -
- officially 70% drained -

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。