rants and angry rants.

currently listening to: Silence [And Enjoying It]

recapping... (and this will prolly make the whole blog load for half an hour)



one of the rare times when we can actually spend some time together again. *sobx* life is so busy. never stopping. work and work and work. makes things sad and nostalgic. but we have to move on anyway. just had a gathering during teachers' day as well but i FORGOT TO TAKE PHOTOS. *slaps myself*



i took this from the class blog. credits to khai i think. and he looks really comic in this picture. haha. taken ages ago during the June holidays. had loads of fun with 05a02 and the friends from PAE 05a02 as well. we went rollerblading and biking and Mcdonalds-ing at East Coast Park before finally BBQ-ing at Alton's house at Mandarin Gardens. which reminds me, it's Alton's birthday today-- HAPPY BIRTHDAY!




took place on the 27 of August, Saturday. had a loooong and booooring APP training session before that and i seriously thought i would fall into the water when we went down to kallang to start dragonboating. but it turned out to be loads of fun despite us rowing for 1 and a half hours straight. i think that's where the fun lies- we actually got to know how to go about dragonboating, unlike during TPJC Seasports Carnival where they just throw us into the sea and expect us to miraculously row somehow. we came in second! losing to SP but half a boat. considering we only had 12 people (8 of which were girls) in comparison to SP's 16-man crew, i would say it was a victory for us!!! and we won VJC too =X





look at the difference between those who are camera-shy and those who are simply camera-addicted (referring to huichun hor. wahha.). these were taken at the International Varsity Debate 2005 last thursday. almost like a 4CA gathering (henry low went too) in my opinion. we went for the preliminary round where Sweden was against Korea, and both sides had to debate in MANDARIN over the budget-airlines issue. was kinda comical cuz it didn't feel like a proper debate at all (or maybe i was expecting too much out of it). i did enjoy the intermission where they entertained us with folk songs and personal experiences though. so we waited for the results and... KOREA WON. shucks.




taken last thursday before i went for the debate. ProjectWork-ing with Wee Keat and Aishah at Changi Airport. had lunch at Popeye's!! not too bad, though i still feel that the mashed potatoes taste weird.

i was really pissed that day with that idiotic-shouldn't-even-have-existed-or-intruded-into-my-life COW sim chengyi. i was late for 2 hours that day (i admit sincerely that it's my fault. i am really really sorry that i overslept.)and Wee Keat was telling me to get prepared for a 'speech' by that idiot. i turn to him in expectation and he goes: "actually i have alot of things to say but i don't want to say cuz it's not worth my time talking to someone like you."

BOOM!!! that was it. it's not like they didn't get anything done just because i was late. i was seriously pissed and i started staring and demanding an explaination. he kept his mouth shut like he lost his voice and just pasted his face and hands onto the glass panels of the Marina Mandarin Hotel like a *ahem* (keeping in mind that the guests at the other side of the glass panel were staring up at him as they were eating).

so fine we kept walking. halfway on our journey he told Wee Keat privately that he wants to GO HOME because i was there. i was thinking, ok since you've done your part in the morning let me continue my part and you can go home if you want. but NO. he can't leave without us because he doesn't know the way from CITY HALL back to the CITY HALL MRT. so this means he wants us to stop the PW for that day cuz he doesn't want to stay with ME. so much for priorities. i arrived in a taxi too. he's not getting it right-- he's messing up the PW session cuz of a personal feud? how mature and selfless is that? maybe i should have been the one to leave since he's stopping the PW session cuz of me, but i bet he'll make excuses about me not doing work and blah. so what he wan me to do??? die from guilt on the spot??

he gets on my nerves. not only does he not contribute constructively to the entire PW, he acts as if he is the expert and comments on all the things we've done after much discussion. and he would go: "i don't understand why we should do this. blah blah blah." when we have already met up and dicussed about the reasons for coming up with the 'this' in the context. otherwise he would go: " we shouldn't do it this way! this is wrong!" when we have finished the entire GPP or EOM after going through all the meetings and discussions. perhaps he should have made it a point to OPEN HIS EARS to whatever we say during meetings instead of playing around with my water-bottle and asking me how much it costs.

but in the end we ignore his comments anyway cuz he's always either reinstating the doubts we have already cleared during meetings or just making a flawed point but trying to put it across in a way that we are suppose to go: "ohhh. we see our mistakes. you are so smart chengyi!!" forget it. not in a million years. he must have failed listening too.

i can't wait to hit all the teeth outta his mouth when the whole PW is over. but i have to RESTRAIN. i'm gonna let him just splash his saliva all over my face the next PW session cuz the ultra-strained relationship between the two of us is affecting the rest of the members. really sorry guys... i know you guys have been tolerating with him all these while so that the PW will progress smoothly and now i have to mess things up just because i lost control. *sobx*

i've never detested someone so much before. maybe my primary school friends would remember my feud with this guy called kangwei but even then i knew that i was almost always in the wrong. it was more of a form of respect and admiration towards the seemingly perfect person in front of my eyes then that i guessed i got a little jealous and angry for being 'imperfect'. we're ok now by the way. but this time it's different-- NOTHING about this guy i can acknowledge. i just wanna hit him.

gosh i sound like such a whiny brat. this guy just makes me fume. i wonder how much more i can take.

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