the future

currently listening to: Close to You [The Carpenters]

i seriously wanted to finish my econs drcs tonight. that was before i succumbed to my temptations (not fair!! the computer is just beside my study-table!!) and started playing minesweeper flags with wanfung on msn.

ok. so much for determination.

then i was looking for some stuff on the net (i forgot what) and i stumbled upon this livejournal entry. as i continued reading, i realised that this girl is everything that i want to be. initially, i was attracted towards her passion and views on japanese idols like Johnny Entertainment etc because her views are sooo similar to mine-- that these idols are not just short-term stars, but a motivation for all fans to move on because their determination and passion towards their work are really something we should look up to.

it might be true that some of them earn their fame because they look good (since their popularity would fade away once their fans find another replacement), but if you really do observe and take notice, the amount of hard work and dedication they give to their work is really commendable. despite knowing that their 'lifespan' is the industry might amount to only a couple of years, they are still willing to go out there and strive for their moment of fame, as well as to realise their dreams of becoming a star. and so, because they believe so firmly in their cause, they begin to give their everything in accomplishing their work without knowing that their very actions will have such an impact on the world who views them-- people like me and that girl who are so inspired by what they do and who they have become.

in her journal entry, she actually wrote down something like that, "artistes from Chinese Entertainment are always so afraid of being called an idol, but these guys are more than willing to stay as idols, and they've never regretted their choice." maybe we can't really vouch for the last part, but it does reflect a certain mentality that is different among the industries in various countries. maybe this is why Japanese idols are the way they are =)

which reminds me, i was at mise*sclusive again yesterday when we were celebrating juliana's birthday. i wanted to get more w-inds.' photos but i realised that there wasn't any new ones, so i moved on to KAT-TUN merchandise and bought this really expensive Gokusen 2 T-shirt at a 30% discount (still wondering if i had made the right choice *sobx*). anyway, the point was that when i was settling the purchase, the shopkeeper actually commented:

"you also like them? i thought you only like w-inds."

that was when i realised that she can actually recognise me, which makes sense since i'd been to the shop a gazillion times already and drooling like a pervert over the photos. then i told her that i had recently been diverting to KAT-TUN, and that i felt a little guilty about it since it seemed like i didn't like w-inds. anymore. she just smiled and said:

"it's ok lah. alot of people have been diverting to KAT-TUN as well. it's kinda sad actually because when i asked them whether they wanted to buy w-inds.' merchandise as well, they'd tell me that they don't like w-inds. anymore. it didn't use to be like that lah! w-inds. was really SO hot previously. kinda sad. so whenever i see you i'd feel a little comforted because it means that there are still firm w-inds. supporters around. =)"

while she said that she was actually keying in my purchase of the super expensive KAT-TUN shirt, and i stared miserably at that single w-inds. photo i had purchased along with it. imagine my guilt when i realised it was kinda true cuz i would never have left the shop without buying at least $5 worth of w-inds. stuff, and this time i was actually walking away with a $2 purchase of a photo of keita but with a $40++ KAT-TUN shirt.

when i went home i dug up all the w-inds. DVD and watched them all over again. the w-inds.tv DVD really made me feel like slapping myself for diverting. after 4 years of watching how they grew up and being so inspired by them, i'm actually forsaking them for a bunch of 'act-cool' guys from Johnny Entertainment?*slap*slap*slap*

NEVER!!! *back to w-inds.mania-mode*

but see what i mean by a short lifespan? when i read all the posts at w-inds. forums in march, everyone was commenting on how w-inds. had changed their lives, and how much they had inspired them, and that they'll never stop supporting the group. yet half a year later they are leaving w-inds. behind in a corner of their minds, and going ga-ga over KAT-TUN instead. *sigh*

well at least i am still inspired =))

coming back to the topic, i was initially attracted by the girl's views on the Japanese entertainment industry as well as her passion for these idols. then i realised that she is fluent in Japanese, was working in a Japanese company in Singapore with a cute Japanese boss, and is now in Japan working for the same company. hahaha! sounds like something from a drama serial doesn't it?

but i am so super envious. working in the Singaporean branch allowed her alot of exposure to Japanese people, and her boss is so friendly and kind towards her. she can even talk about her Japanese idol in front of all those senior executives when they are having dinner all together, and they respond to her so spontaneously because they happened to know that idol as well-- all these when she was on probation. she's in some a typical company where she needs to go around doing entertainment, sorting data, attend large-scale meetings (with lots of Japs) and blah. do they call such people OLs? something like that. and she seems to have friends all over the world-- japan, taiwan, hongkong etc. shiawase dayo...

her life seems so perfect to me and i think she feels so too, except that she did worry about working in an office all her life (typical). but she's working overseas in Japan now, which has always been her dream, though i don't see the difference since she's still working in an office over there anyway.

reading her journal entries are like reading chapters off a book like Shopaholic. it's always so filled with events because her character and personality attracts many. makes me wonder about the kinda situation i will be in ten years down the road. will i be getting everything that i hope for just like her?

*ponders*

was still chatting with wanfung and he started talking about vienna and venice, and we chatted about where we wanted to go if we had the chance. this added on to my ponderings about the future-- whether i'd be able visit all the places that i want to, see all the things that i've been seeing in photographs... i want to go to mongolia!! all these a few decades down the road... hopefully.

life is like a journey...

i really wanna work on the econs drcs. but i guess i'll have to leave it till tomorrow cuz my mother's screaming for me to be in bed. sheesh. what's the use of holidays if you can't stay up late???

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。