feeling helpless

currently listening to: Care (I Know) [Akanishi Jin]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIYANG!!!
my cousin's birthday today
=)

new blogskin!
courtesy of xiaoyu, a jimmy liao fan
ok, i'm not that into jimmy's art
but i shall start from here
=)

the fact that i had time to do a new skin
means that i am totally neglecting work
which is currently piling up at the side of my desk
i slept while studying again last night
at 11pm-- i just started
at 11.30pm-- zzZz
barely finished a paragraph and plop!
i'd gone away to dreamland again

why does this keep happening!?!?!?

and my aunt came down with some kinda giddiness yesterday
would have been scary if it was for the first time
i thought that maybe i should do something
but then the way my whole family reacted was just too much
what's wrong with my Grandma showing a little concern for her own daughter
why do they have to shoo her away?
and plus nobody answered the phone when we phoned them for help
the way my family was reacting really DOTS
i got so pissed off i just went into the room with my literature homework
where i plop! and went to sleep
turned out that my aunt got admitted into the hospital yesterday while i was sleeping
made me feel kinda guilty to have slept through all these
but on second thought
i might have made things worse if i stayed
and flew into my tantrum at my family's reaction to Grandma's concern
but my aunt's okay now

will be attempting to complete my assignments
that is, if i don't end up sleeping again
arghh
what's wrong with me?
why can't i just stick my butt to the chair for a few hours??
ok, i'm starting to turn into a pessimist
this saturday just don't feel so great
work~work~work~

oh and did i mention that w-inds.' new single is gonna be out soon!?!?
Izayoi no Tsuki!!!


can't wait~ can't wait~ can't wait~~~

oh and take a look at my dream room
made it out of the Mini Room-Maker
evidence of my slacking away
again
*sobx*



記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。