there's no sunshine after the rain

currently listening to: Ticking and Tocking [The Clock on My Wall]

i played the weekends away (sort of) by sleeping till late afternoon, entertaining myself with the GameCube playing Mario Party (and losing terribly to my cousins too) and watching 'War of the Worlds' with my Aunt and brother. ermm.. it's quite alot isn't it? *scratches head and acts blur* haha. blame it on my beauty sleep.



anyway, i thought i could continue playing the rest of the Sunday away, until i stupidly (or maybe wisely) turned on the computer and logged on to tpjc.net to discover that there are quite abit of assignments that i have to do before school reopens. -____-

man, it was a wise choice to avoid using (in stricter terms: to not be able to use) the computer during the weekends. otherwise i would have been bothered by all these stupid assignments. *punches fist into the air*

but still it doesn't solve my problems or complete the pile of assignments i have to do. maybe it can't be measured in 'piles', but the sheer amount of effort i have to put into each and every one of these tasks makes me wanna just run onto the road and beg for cars to run me over.

1) Economics SIEAs, which i have irresponsibly procrastinated until today, only to find out that the due date is by tuesday. it wouldn't have been a problem if i were doing it alone cuz all the blame would only be on me but it's PROJECT WORK! URGH. this means that my irresponsibility may drag others into trouble too. *sobx* i feel so guilty. plus i absolutely cannot stand Ms Tay and her mood swings (having been ticked off by her for no reason one sunny afernoon) and i have a feeling she won't hesitate to just shoot me with a rifle gun if i tell her i haven't completed the project. *gulps* there goes my 'guai-guai-girl' image.

2) Gothic Essay. now this is something that really frustrates me and makes me question yet again my choice for choosing literature when the teachers are like SOOOO last-minute. we are suppose to split ourselves in groups and do a presentation on wednesday when school only reopens on tuesday?? talk about a hectic JC life-- the teachers are making it worse.

3) Project Work. i am sad to announce once again that i have neglected (ok, 'procrastinated'. if it makes you better.) to compile the information that my group has painstakingly researched on despite being chased out of the NUS library and spending a whole morning in the tampines library. as if the guilt's not enough.

4) Literature PC. sometimes i wonder if it's just that i am too soft in my nagging or that my classmates feel that PC isn't important. 3 reminders and 1 whole month but only 6/25 of the total class population submitted their work. argh. whatever. plus i have to take over the lesson this tuesday because ms lee's gonna be away. erm.. me?? someone with speech disorder and subconscious stage-fright who runs to the toilet every now and then due to nervousness and anxiety?? what am i gonna do. WHAT AM I GONNA DO!?!?!?!?!?

5) Interact True Hearts Events. Wednesday and two Saturdays. it's stress stress stress all over again. we're meeting our mentees this wednesday, and that big big pimple on my red red nose means that i probably won't be making a good impression on my mentees. man, this is not doing well at all lahhh. blah.

thankfully, most of these work will be over once tuesday is over, though i can't be sure whether i'll be able to produce decent pieces of work or not. this is killing me. everything is.

oh and my mother came home from hong kong today. i was soo excited when she told me that she'd bought w-inds. stuff for me over there. she was telling me that she bought lots of stuff with the picture of 'the guy i like' on them. i was jumping for joy when i got hold of the bag full of stuff.... only to find that she thought that 'the guy i liked' is RYOHEI. -____-



so now i have i bag filled with ryohei stuff. not that i don't like ryohei of course... but KEITA is the love of my life!!! *sobx* what am i gonna do with all the stuff. plus they cost a bomb too. haizz. misfortunes misfortunes misfortunes.

oh and did i mention about my chinese oral? it went like this:

Passage read: 我最讨厌这种感觉了。一踏进门就响起“叮咚”一声。。。
xinyi read: 我最讨厌这种感觉了。一踏进门就响起“叮当”一声。。。

dots. after the "叮当" (a product of reading too much doraemon comics), everything after that went haywire cuz i was frantically thinking about my mistake. it was the first sentence lahh!!! my reading is completely GONE WITH THE WIND. i am now staring at my doraemon comics with murderous eyes....



so as you can see the week didn't really go well for me. but it still doesn't extinguish my passion for w-inds. and jpop stuff. been listening to ageha over and over again and all the songs are just SOOOO nice!!! i thought the genre was pretty weird when i listened to the CD for the very first time. but it got interesting during the second time. and by the third time i am totally depending on it for survival. *wahahhaa* (an exaggeration of cuz. but the extent of my passion is more than that *smirks*)

oh and i came across this picture somehow.



i am like... "OH MY GOD!!" when i saw this picture. my innate reaction towards bishonens. *wahahhaha* but my taste is high ok! i don't go dots over just any guy. this is the truth and nothing but the truth.

so who is this guy? KAMENASHI KAZUYA from KAT-TUN! a johnny ent. artiste. erm... yeah, i hate johnny but this guy may just totally change my opinion of the company. hmm. a potential candidate to enter the ranks of being in my 'obsession list'. just 'POTENTIAL'. KEITA'S STILL THE BEST. *nods head vigorously*



and i bought Kamichama Karin from Kinokuniya recently. it's really quite an interesting book. i'm definitely gonna follow the series. koge-donbo's stories are really unresistable for me. *wahhaha*



I SAW STEFANIE SUN!!!! last friday when i was out with xinwei, carine and tingxu at orchard to unwind after the exams. i was going "oh my god... oh my god... oh my god..." when i caught sight of her walking briskly past us. to think that we were still playing and '闹成一团-ing' in front of her.

xinyi: "Oh my god... oh my god... oh my god..."
tingxu (fidgeting around with carine, xinwei and me): hey don't squeeze. don't squeeze!
xinyi: "oh my god... huh? don't scream ar? okok...."
*stefanie walks past*
tingxu: "don't squeeze!"
xinyi: *realises it's 'squeeze' and not 'scream' but still in state of shock*
xinyi: "i think i saw stefanie sun."
3 of them:" STEFANIE SUN!!?!?! WHERE??? *turns head and starts looking around*
xinyi: -_____-"

maybe the encounter 'shocked' me too much that the Sensors in Kinokuniya went 'beepbeepbeep' when i stepped into the store with no library books, not stolen stuff, no anything. poor xinwei, tingxu and carine had to have their bags checked by the security guard together with me when they hadn't even stepped into the store at all (still looking for stefanie) *wahhaha*.

quite an outing =)

but it still doesn't erases the fact that the results will be out next week and i will be so very disappointed with myself till the point of... erm... the point of... drowning myself in w-inds.' music. i guess it's pia pia and pia for the remaining of the year...

ok so i'm gonna try to do some research for the Econs SIEAS and Project Work tomorrow at tropica-- that is, if i can get anything done with regina and juliana around. *wahhahaha* we just can't stop when we start talking. gonna shop at orchard with them after we've completed our assignments. i shall be, of course, trying to decide again whether to buy the w-inds. towel or not. hope everything goes well =)

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