ramblings

currently listening to: 桜色舞うころ [Mika Nakashima]

went out with pipi and alrina to get aboo's birthday present today! we settled the present thingy rather quickly, then alrina had to leave... for the same reason as usual *stares*. i decided to drag pipi to the anime shop at Sunshine Plaza instead of the mise s*clusive at heerens. why? hmm... i just wanted to look at anime stuff, plus i visited mise s*clusive less than a week ago already.

strangely, i had a craving for Japanese curry rice the whole day. *drools*

in the end i left the shop without buying anything *sobx*. seriously, there should be more anime shops in Singapore. there is a rising trend in the number of anime/manga supporters in Singapore ya know!! i mean, almost every one out of 5 people i meet do watch anime. not just watch anime, but actually like it and have a favourite character and starting to look it up on the net and something like that, JUST LIKE ANY ANIME-LOVER. and the number of manga fans i've met? you'll be shocked.

*nods head in full agreement* i should plan to start a chain of such shops someday. but on the other hand, it might not be such a good idea since i would be turning all the customers away and kicking them out of the shop cuz i can't bear to part with the anime merchandise.

another thing. it finally dawned upon me today that... THE HOLIDAYS ARE ENDING. how can a week pass so quickly??? damnit.

i can just picture myself entering the totally unfamiliar TPJC compound and walking towards the hall and wondering where i should seat since everyone seems so familiar and at ease with one another. then i would be like the very first day of the ACJC experience. me seating down and flcking my eyes from place to place while blinking them repeatedly at shutter speed. and everyone will be wondering what the weird girl who keeps blinking her eyes is doing and will then look at me with a weird expression on their faces.

argh!!! school-phobia!!!!

i am just glad that at least there will be some people i'm familiar with in TPJC. pipi, for example. i'm meeting her on the first day of school so i won't get lost even though the TPJC compound is only half the size of ACJC. but when i was in ACJC, it was like... i look around frantically for familiar faces, found none and realized that people were quite 'attracted' to my weird uniform which is apparently not seen around in the west-side before.

"erm... which school are you from?"
"ahh... hai sing catholic."
"...what?"

it's either that i speak too quickly (a common complaint), or that they never knew such a school with a weird uniform even existed. ok fine. maybe some of them do know hai sing catholic for some unknown reason (they told me something about third language lessons), but i bet they never expected our uniform to be so 'wonderfully' coloured.

and besides that, everyone speaks pure standard english, and some WITH SLANG. urgh.

but that's over. and i'm kinda sad i'm leaving ACJC already even though i chose to. weird? not exactly. you tend to build up some relationships in a period of time, and 3 months is exactly the standard time period to warm up a relationship. the thing that made me adamnant to leave ACJC is the environment and the way of life. and the thing that made me a little sad about leaving is the people there (mostly without slang).

but ok, that's over too. i'm just praying that i will find friends in TPJC that will colour my life so brilliantly like what my rss and hsc's friends did. and despite what everyone says about TPJC being a slacker school, i WILL NOT SLACK.

take that! *punches fist into the air*

maybe occasional trips to TM (provided i do find friends whom i'm comfortable enough with to go out with), and some daydreaming activities during tutorials or lectures, and maybe very very few days of ponning school. other than that, i will be fine.

mug and mug and mug and mug. fine, maybe the mugger part isn't exactly what i plan to do. this time i'm serious. too much hard work yet too little results to see that it really paid off. i'll just go at my own pace instead of trying overly hard. i believe that it's better for me this way.

BUT! as juliana said before, i will PIA when i have to. so don't worry about the hardworking xinyi disappearing!! i'm still a good role model ya know =).

moving on. i fell in love with this song from Nakashima Mika lately.

Sakurairo Maukoro
Nakashima Mika

sakurairo maukoro
watashi wa hitori
osae kirenu mune ni tachitsuku shiteta
wakabairo moyureba omoi afurete
subete wo miushinai anata e nagareta

meguru kigi tachi dake ga
futari wo miteitano
hito tokoro niwa todo marenaito
sotto oshiena kara

karehairo someteku anata no tonari
utsuruiyo ku hibi ga aieto kawaruno

douka kigi tachi dake wa
kono omoi wo mamotte
mou ichido dake futari no ue de
sotto hawo yurashite

yagate toki wa futari wo
doko he hakonde yuku no
tada hitotsu dake tashikana ima wo
sotto dakishimete ita

yuki e shou matoeba omoi hagurete
ashiatomo keshiteku otonaki itazura

douka kigi tachi dake wa
kono omoi wo mamotte
eien no naka futari todomete
koko ni ikitsudzukete

meguru kigi tachi dake ga
futari wo miteitano
hito tokoro niwa todo marenaito
sotto oshiena kara

sakurairo maukoro watashi wa hitori
anata e no omoi wo kamishimeta mama


English Translation!

when the color of cherry blossoms fills the air
I'm alone,
standing dumb, unable to contain what I feel in my heart

when the color of the new leaves sprouts
the feelings come pouring out,
I lost track of everything,
and drifted towards you

Only the changing trees saw us.
quietly letting us know
that we can't stay in one place

turning the color of dead leaves
next to you
the days passing by
change this to love.

please, at least let these trees
keep my feeling safe
rustle those leaves above us
just once more

soon enough, time will
carry us away
I hold gently to what we have now,
the only thing I can be sure of.

covered over by snow
the feelings stray
the footprints will fade,
a soundless mischief.

please, at least let these trees
keep my feeling safe
freeze us in 'eternity'
let us live on here.

Only the returning trees
saw us.
quietly letting us know
that we can't stay in the one place

when the color of cherry blossoms fills the air
I'm alone
savoring my feelings for you.

man, the lyrics are so sincere. the PV's really sad too. *sobx* and Mika's voice is really superb. plus she's quite pretty too! the impression she gives me as if she's someone full of emotions but can't convey them for some kinda noble reason. *sigh* aren't we all like that? VEXED. HELPLESS. GETTING ON WITH LIFE SOMEHOW. and don't accuse me of having an overactive imagination.



i'm thinking of getting her album... when she comes up with a compilation *wahahaha* that would be so much worth it. anyone who wants to listen to this song can approach me. i'll send it to you on msn. =)

oh and did i mention that w-inds.' fourth album is coming out sometime in march? man, I'M SOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. let me just surf the net to see if i can find pictures of the album... provided that they are available already, of course.

meanwhile, let's just live with these =)











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