currently listening to: Zhe Yi Miao Zhong (This Second)[Andy Hui]

CAUTION! w-inds. fangirl mode: switched on and adjusted to 'FULL POWER"!!

w-inds.-ing right now!! (*w-inds.-ing: xinyi's term for browsing through w-inds. info, find more about them, pictures etc.)

was a little surprised today as i began my routine w-inds.-ing. surprised at how crazy i am over them. usually it doesn't take long for me (around 1 year or so) to forget about something that i was mad about then. but for w-inds., it's different, and i am glad. *w-inds.*

i absolutely ADORE everything about them-- especially the private side. just watching them lame around is already enough to make my day. going the net and reading 'keita this... keita that...', 'ryohei this... ryohei that...', 'ryuichi this... ryuichi that...', 'w-inds this... w-inds. that...', i'm in seventh heaven~~~ *wahahahaha* --> i sound so crazy. (but sadly, it's true)

was even more surprised when i visited the message boards and found so many fans even more obessed and crazy over w-inds. than me. all of them seemed to have been inspired by w-inds. in a way. some became more confident, stronger, forthright. some became emotional, sensitive, yet looking forward to the future. then i wondered to myself: god, is this all because of w-inds.?

i suddenly realised, w-inds. have affected me in a way too. i have to admit i became more realistic and happy after knowing of them. i began to think alot about many things, realistic things, unlike me in the past when i loved to daydream about unrealistic things like turning into a magical girl and fighting forces of evil etc. *blushes* i actually thought about what i am gonna be when i grow up, what's gonna be my goal in life? and even so, they are heavily influenced by w-inds.~

don't ask me why. maybe it's because i am aware of how hard these guys work for their goals and how determined they are about achieving it. this is something that i know i can never do, at least for now. i have no determination at all. a little negative things will turn me the other way, which is to say, i give up easily.

but this isn't the case with w-inds., they are so sure of what they want in life, and are working very very hard towards it. and the amazing thing is that even as they are working towards their goal, they influence others, giving them hopes and dreams, making them sure of themselves etc., just like they have to me and i feel that being able to do this is such a good thing. being an idol does have benefits too.

so when i started on one of my assignments, one which required me to discuss about youngsters going absolutely crazy about their idols, i began to have a different thinking. the xinyi in the past would have said that 'this is bad thing' without thinking much, but the xinyi right now would say 'this is not a bad thing after all', and this is one of the many ways they have influenced me in my thinking. (*note: i am very sure that this is not the fangirl syndrome.)

being able to give hope and dreams to others is such a fantastic thing, and this has got me into thinking what i am gonna be in the future.

no, i'm NOT gonna dream of being a SUPERSTAR. it's not possible. but i can at least be something close to it. something that helps these idols shape dreams and hopes for their fans, lke w-inds. have done to me and many others. *winkz*

so i am almost 120% right now sure that i am going to go into the media industry when i grow up. but it's still hard to say, isn't it? i shall repeat myself, I HAVE NO DETERMINATION. h0weVer, it might be a little different in this case. who knows?

ALL HAIL w-inds.!!!





hehehe... thought about too many serious things for too long today.... HEADACHE.

P.S. i manage to draw the 'boxing thing' within the borders already!!! *happy happy*
(think only the 3 of them knows what i am talking about.. hahahaha~~)

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。