currently listening to: Yume de aru Youni[Tales of Destiny]

not in a very good mood now.

i feel so damn stressed up over the class T thingy. don't know how i got into this anyway. should've cut off my hands when i had the chance.

can't find the stupid printer cd right now when i need to print my 40+-page project that is due tomorrow. worst thing is that the school's printer is STUPID and there isn't enough paper.

i just hate it when i can't do anything. right now my stupid and irresponsible brother i telling a lie right into my mother's face just because he feels that it is too troublesome to tell her the truth.

this kinda stupid attitude is what that is gonna lead him to major problems in the future. he doesn't want to tell my mother ANYTHING. he feels that it's ok even if he is not telling her the truth about things. man, then are you still her son??

he states that: "i don't want to trouble everyone when i tell her." the fact is, he doesn't want trouble for HIMSELF. how nice it sounds when he says 'everyone'.

he doesn't give a damn about what other people think. when he came home real late from school one day, all we did was to say: "WHERE WERE YOU!!?? WE WERE WORRIED SICK!!" then for no reason he would throw his temper and say: "WHAT'S THERE TO WORRY ABOUT??? I DIN ASK YOU TO WORRY!" and i felt like smacking him in the face except that i can't because i had a stomachache then. he doesn't even bother to give a call and my grandmother would stand for hours by the window, with the dinner that she prepared all cold, waiting for him to return home. IRRESPONSIBLE IDIOT.

similar situations, and even worse, have already happened many times and he is always like that. worse thing is, he doesn't even admit his mistake!! always using his gift of the gab to shirk all responsibility and make it seem as if WE were in the wrong, just like the earlier case. doesn't know that he is only cheating himself.

i feel like typing vulgarities. he is such a JERK.

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。