currently listening to: I Lay My Love On You [Westlife]

although it had been quite some time ago that i received news the Daran Publishings has fallen, it is only until now that i realised my future manga life is being threatened.

i have just found out that all of my favourite mangas, series which i have yet to finish collecting, IS ALL UNDER DARAN!! well... most of them anyway (and that's bad enough).

Tokyo Underground.... Spiral~ Suiri no Kizuna.... Inuyasha.... Matantei Loki.... GONE!!!!! (and more)

inuyasha isn't too bad.. received news that another publisher is going to take over its printing but Spiral and Tokyo??? NO NEWS!!! *tears out hair*

and my latest craze, matantei loki the manga season 1, used to be under Daran Publishings and they completed the printing. the problem is, now that they have packed up and left the manga world, matantei loki CAN NO LONGER BE FOUND and i've only JUST started on the series!!! i can still pin some hope on the fact that since spiral and tokyo underground has not been completed, maybe another publisher will decide to pick it up again. but for a series that has already been completely printed, who's gonna carry it again??? ARGH!!!!!

if you are not capable of carrying on your business, why pick the hot favourites to print anyway!!!! make people's life difficult.... *curses* [referring to Daran Publishings]

the fall of Daran has a very big impact on the manga world, especially for the Chinese, or so they say. now the only reliable publisher who carries most of the hot favourites (such as FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST~) is TongLi Publishings. how can we live on only ONE publisher?!?!?!

referring to the word 'reliable' as mentioned in the earlier paragraph, i am not even sure that TongLi will not back off so suddenly as Daran did. i mean, Daran was an ESTABLISHED publishing company with a reputation that could fit the GODS in the manga world (ok, maybe i am exagerrating... by a LITTLE). no one expected it to fall, no one expected that TOKYO UNDERGROUND would be gone just like that, but now, IT HAS FALLEN. so it's really hard to say that the same thing wouldn't happen to TongLi too. *ch0i!** touches wooden table *

ok enough blabberings about the manga world, i bet half of you wouldn't know what i am talking about so i shall cut the crap (but i am still very sad... *sobx*).

i was halfway home from Takashimaya (AGAIN-- dragged by my mother) when i stared out of the window seat and caught sight of a bespectacled girl seating in the car beside us. flipping through the pages of what i thought i recognised as a HISTORY textbook, she has studying the pages diligently despite her kid brother (well, at least i think he is her brother), who was seating beside her, throwing the watermelon-shaped cushions about.

while watching her i suddenly realised that besides going to school for remedial lessons (by coercion) and rushing to complete my holiday assignments, i had done basically nothing to upgrade myself. despite the fact that i had shamelessly declared that i would PIA (work very hard) during the June holidays, i had done nothing except for working day and night on this blog (going blog-crazy). then i thought of my brother and his defeat in the battle against the Terrible 'O's' 2 years ago (i felt his results were 'FANTABULOUS' except that he had a D7 for ENGLISH and that.. was bad)and immediately felt a sense of emergency to do something about my slackiness (is there such a word??).

it's probably a little late now to be thinking of such things but this always happens. sigh. am thinking of working REAL hard next term but again, that's what i always say. in addition, the fact that my NEXT exam is gonna be the PRELIMS itself, i am almost sure that my end is near.

i don't think i can afford to do badly in my prelims. i need to attend the first three months of JC and get all the help i can to enter TJC. I HAVE TO ENTER TJC!!!!!!!!!!!!

all talk no work makes the talk worthless. i gotta really do something about it. can feel the stress acting on me right now, propelled by the saddening fact of the demise of DARAN PUBLISHINGS, or rather my TOKYO UNDERGROUND, MATANTEI LOKI and SPIRAL SERIES....

sigh. have a feeling that it gonna be a bad term. imagine me having to return to the dreaded school compounds and hear the sinister ringing of the schoolbell once again. not to mention the screaming teachers and piles of homework they are gonna give us so happily as if they are scattering coffeti.

PITY ME BAH!!!

記憶は明日のために強さになるものだよ。きっと。