a week into work.
currently listening to: In the Club [2NE1]

why do office workers dress the corporate style when it's totally boring, *toot* uncomfortable and ridiculously expensive?

we just like to think that we're being serious by carrying the corporate image as a form of respect. we somehow feel that we should treat work differently from how we treat life in the better light. we want to draw the line between work and personal life so much that we even dress differently for them.

even so, how in the world did we end up choosing the stiff collar and heavy blazer and killer high-heels for the corporate image? why can't it be the comfy jeans and t-shirt for this dreadry 9 to 5 routine that we put ourselves through every single day?

i bet half of us work better in casual wear anyway.

as such.
*slams the heavy hammer on the table*

i hereby declare that humans are by nature masochistic.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Saturday, July 11, 2009

9:53 PM

2NE1.
currently listening to: I Don't Care [2NE1]

my god.
2NE1 is the tops.
and minzy is hot hot hot in the MV.
i can't believe i got 电-ed at 2:06!
a 15-year-old girl, god what was i doing at 15?!

i don't care eh eh eh eh eh~

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

11:01 PM

i didn't know michael jackson.
currently listening to: None [None]

that i wasn't born in his time.
that i knew him for his many scandals instead of his success.
that i spent my years oblivious to his amazing amazing stage.

i regret.

but i doubt i would say the same if he's still around.
and that too.
i regret.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

11:32 PM

random.
currently listening to: I Don't Care [2NE1]

i don't care eh eh eh eh eh.

i'm diggin' the song.
wish i could say the same about my weight now though.
sobsob.

anyways, you know.
suddenly, i think i need to be skilled.
like skilled in something at least.
something that i don't need to rely on my brains for.
some skill.

hmmm.


edit@1.30am:
after solitaire showdown with yihan earlier on,
i'm beginning to suspect that my brain has been functioning at only 20% the entire holidays.

no wonder.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Thursday, June 18, 2009

10:44 PM

this is not dramatic at all.
currently listening to: I Love You [Joanna Wang]

the difference between a kid and an adult is that.
there is no one who will tell your story.
there is no superman outside the window.
there is no friends forever every minute of the day.

run run run. stop.
run run. stop.
you've reached the end of the road, with a u-turn at your convenience.
so you run run run. stop.
you're back again.
with a u-turn at your convenience of course.
but you wonder if there's any sense in reaching the end now.
there is no way to run off to anywhere.

this is not a drama.
this is not dramatic.
there is no one who will wipe away the tears.
there is no one who will stand firmly on your side.
there is no hard work that pays off.
there is no third-person perspective of the story.
or maybe there is.

then you are bent on asking him up there whether you're the sinner.
but you think you know what he will say.
because there are rules to this game.
everyone he watches over plays by the same rules.
and you already know what they say.

you think you're vicitmised.
but no, everyone's victimised.
somehow you are told to be the saint that everyone isn't.
why?, they ask like they don't understand, why can't you?
you should change, they shake their heads, you should be rid of your wrongs.
and then you look back at how far you've come in this... cleansing conquest.
and you can only stare blankly at how they are talking right over your head, talking to the you at the starting point.

you think you're quite sick of how this whole thing works.
you trip over a rock and you know you'll trip over more.
but you've given up on the storyteller, the superman, and the friends forever.
so you trip, get up, and trip, trip, get up, trip again.
don't mind the trips because you know you'll get up.
and because you know there's no way to stop tripping in the first place.

so there is just you.
just you who should get into the game.
just you whom when everyone says you're wrong.
you try to meet their expectations.

basically the difference between a kid and an adult is.
reality.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

4:25 PM

沉默权.
currently listening to: Tea for Two[TVXQ]

after so much.
i'm just that low, that inconsiderate, that heartless.
i wonder why i even bothered.
it's okay.
it's not like i didn't try.
now i know it just doesn't work that way.
it's okay.
i shall just not try anymore.
lest i end up lower than where i came from.
it's okay.
そんなに弱いじゃないから。
なみだわなぜそんなに簡単で流れって自分もわからない。
でもきっと大丈夫だよ。
even if i go back and take it from the top.
no one will notice right?
i'm the same from every single angle after all.
so it's okay.
it's really okay.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。

Monday, June 15, 2009

6:45 PM

celebrating 5 years and 494 posts in blogosphere.
currently listening to: Tea for Two[TVXQ]

woolah woolah new blogskin!

quite a feat since i spent almost a day trying to piece it together. everthing's pretty much similar to the previous skin, other than some new and updated links, and also a new tagboard that i'm rather worried will remain blank like this since no one really tagged on the previous tagboard anyway. really, i wonder why since i know people do read. hello people and i shall wave enthusiastically in the hope that you'll answer.

and the best thing is that i can change to header to whatever i want!
current theme is chappalang things that matter:)))

anyways, if you've heard i'm suppose to be exercising to get rid of the backaches- kinda like physiotherapy for a ligament problem. but, erm, it has not been happening due to my lack of motivation a variety of reasons that seem to just keep me away from my running shoes and FBTs tucked away in the corner of my wardrobe.

brand new too.

i will start exercising tomorrow. i will. i will i will i will.
even if it's in my dreams.

きっと記憶は明日のために強さになるものだなぁ。